Where to even begin. I am a single mother raising two beautiful children. Their father is in the military and left us in 2017 for a woman in his unit that he was having an affair with. We haven’t heard from him since, probably for the best. Up until last year I was also my mother’s legal guardian. She had a severe stroke when I was 18 that left her with severe memory loss. She passed away last year from lung cancer. That’s when this story really begins. My world was turned upside down in an instant. One day I was being told that her lung nodules may be cancerous and in a blink of an eye, I was being asked to sign a DNR. I was 28, I didn’t even know what a DNR was. Days later she passed away. I had never planned a funeral. Have you ever had to pick out an outfit that someone will wear for all eternity? I have. I still wonder if she would have liked it. My mother is gone, the father of my children is gone, and my savings are gone. I have always been a support system for others in my life. That’s probably why I have been in denial watching the bills pile up. My rent is due today. I’m remaining positive and hopeful that all will work out. Stress never paid the bills right? My credit score was a 720 last year, I don’t dare check it now. My bank account is over drafted and I have automatic payments that will be declined. I’m still hopeful. All of my credit cards are maxed out, I needed an oil change 2000 miles ago, and I don’t dare to open the past due notices that keep arriving in the mail. Instead, I am taking it one day at a time. I am making sure my children don’t feel how I feel. I make sure their meals are hot, clothes are warm, and they feel nothing but love in this house that I am desperately trying to maintain. I go to work each day hoping that my paycheck will be enough to keep something from being shut off. I go to college hoping that my degree will be the winning ticket in this unpredictable lottery of life. I’m hoping that this site will be my saving grace. You miss 100% of the chances that you don’t take, right? And even if it’s not, it feels great to finally get it off my chest. I am drowning and I need help.
To anyone willing to help, my PayPal is:
paypal.me/bekahkirsten
From the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU.