Growing up in a middle-class family. Never have I ever thought I would have come to this stage. When I was younger I use to give money to the handouts if I saw them at the traffic lights, but as I got into college, I never did anymore, I may buy them food, but I don’t lend out money anymore because I met one where I gave him $5, but I saw him buying beer with it afterwards when I ran into in at a convenience store. I know every homeless may not be like that one guy. However, if he only needs to worry about himself, and still can stand in the sun all day to beg, they can go find a part-time job anywhere.
I went to college, worked at family restaurant, and worked part-time trying to support myself and pay my loans. My family of 4 had a small restaurant, we didn’t make big money, but enough to make ends meet to support the restaurant, 1 van, and our house. If we do a good job, we may have a couple thousands leftover for that month. But sometimes I feel like the higher power knows when you have some money saved up, other things in your life will need to be replaced. The heater in our house, a tire on a car needs to be replacement, but turns out all four has to be replace, we can’t just replace one. Where my parents were supposed to have 2 thousand saved up that month, we actually had to fork out another $400 on top. We were just never able to save or have enough to start up on another thing. So, I decided to work another part-time. I have done graveyard part-time at fast food place, then did janitorial work at night time. Then I met my ex-husband one day at the restaurant. Life became a little better. We started our own life, sometimes I’ll have some extra money I can help out back at home. Then September 2017 it’s like a soap opera, my ex-husband left me and my son, my grandmother passed. We have Medicaid since October 2017, but anything we owed before then, I am still paying off. Why did no one told us even dying cost money. We took out a 18k loan for my grandmother burial and funeral services. I never knew even passing takes so much money. Now, I am currently working 2 jobs, moved back in with my parents with my son and doing what I can. I feel ashamed to be on here asking for handouts. I feel like this is karma for when I looked down on some of the people standing at traffic lights asking for handouts and I said in my head, you can go get a job. Now here I am even with two jobs and holidays coming up I am here asking for help. If I don’t get it, I know it’s my karma. I chose the wrong husband, but I am grateful for my son. I am thankful for my parents to let us stay with them.
The amount I am asking for is all for debt, student loans, car payments, mortgage, hospital bill from my son’s birth, burial funeral payments, credit cards, loans I borrowed from relatives and friends. Total of $160,797.08 Once this amount is paid off, from my two jobs I should have enough left over for Thanksgiving and Christmas. 2020 is where I can start giving my son a life he deserves.