You never think when making a major life decision that your life would in fact become harder than it ever was before. That you would be placed in a more stressful situation but in different aspects of your life. That you would sit back and watch the person who destroyed you become more successful as you fight daily to make ends meet. I woke up one morning after 6 years of abuse and decided it was time to take my 5-year-old and run as far as I could away from the unsafe and unhealthy environment we had been living in. I had to start completely over, rebuild from scratch, find new employment, seek safe shelter, enroll in a new school, make new friends. I just can’t seem to get even or ahead of the game no matter what I do. I’ve had two jobs for a year now, I’m exhausted and missing out on my daughter growing up. I’ve let her down more with my absences trying to rebuild than I did trying to avoid the public becoming aware of the domestic abuse in my marriage. I feel like a failure and with Christmas approaching, I fear that’s another let down for my daughter because it’s either keep our home and have very little gifts under our tree or ensure she has the best Christmas and fall even further behind on bills and face possible eviction. I’ve applied for assistance but due to my two incomes I’m over the guidelines although I don’t make enough monthly to cover all bills, housing needs, rent, food and odds and in things. My family isn’t near me due to having to relocate in order to stay safe. I need help and I have nowhere else to turn at this point in time and am at the point to begging for some form of relief. I want my daughter to have one Christmas and one birthday (November 25) where she isn’t asking me if I’m okay or knowing she can’t get what she wants because mommy has to pay the bills. I’m sick of crying daily because I feel like she would be better off with a family who could provide and meet her daily needs better than I can but I also know that isn’t realistic and she will always remember who was present not the presents. Literally, any donation would help. I’m just a single mother trying to survive today’s economy and struggles :( I have no set amount on financial help I’m requesting….just any help at all would be a blessing.