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Good evening, my name is Angela Smith & I’m 45 years young. I have four beautiful wonderful daughters from my first marriage (of 18 years). I filed for a divorce in 2013 and was finally granted it in late 2013. From that moment I built walls around myself and my girls a mile high, I thought. From the moment I was free until July 2016 I don’t think I had ever been so content and happy with life in general, even though life as a single mom of four girls was very eventful & somewhat hard, I proved to myself it was capable of happening. So “July 2016” I met the man I am currently in a relationship with. He swept me off my feet. I had always been a person that lived paycheck to paycheck & he was taking me & my girls on shopping sprees, out for fancy dinners, to concerts you name it. I was blinded. Remember I said my walls were a mile high? Yea well he tore them down with ease. After a very brief courtship of three months, he asked me to marry him. Me thinking I had found someone that loved and adored me & wanted what was best & good for the 5 girls that was now the center of his attention, I was so very easily fooled. Not even a full two weeks after saying our vows, the mood very quickly shifted to a narcissistic gas-lighting financially controlling abusive behaviors. It left me dumbfounded and realizing how stupid I felt for allowing myself to be fooled in such a manner. Our first wedding anniversary he changed the locks and called the cops to me for trying to get into our home to sleep after work that evening. It caused a big commotion which led to his packing up literally every thing from inside the home (refrigerator, stove, tvs, beds, dishes literally everything) and moving leaving us like, “who what, when & where”. He had a small piece of property he moved a camper to and that’s where he went. We went to my mom’s. I forgot to mention, when I met him I had my own brick home fully furnished & a vehicle. Moving in with him & being told, ” oh I’ll take care of you all, you won’t need any of this stuff, we’re going to be a family” I believed him & donated and sold what appliances etc I had. So the situation left me with nothing. Which, in cause still had me in a very gullible state of mind. I got divorce papers hand delivered to me at my moms home. Not even 18 months into this marriage, it was over and left me and girls with practically nothing but the clothes on our backs.
I was still having text conversations with him, being groomed or however one would describe it. So the divorce goes through & I sign it and he wants to have me come and stay from time to time, finally leading to the last 4 years that I’ve just survived as a human. My mental health has gotten to an all time low. I’m constantly treated like a child, having my car keys (technically his car bc my name isn’t on the title, he just told me it was mine) taken away from me when he foesnt approve of something I’ve done or I wasn’t home with supper on the table when he arrived home from work. I have to sit back and watch him throw away and waste money for his family members when my the two of my daughters that still live at home need things like clothes or shoes, God forbid they want to get their hair done or anything any teenage girl would want. I’ve watched him throw extravagant birthday party’s for his son and ad spend thousands & then not even acknowledge my daughters birthdays. He recently got me in working (I clean others homes for a living) for a Pathologist that he’s done work for. She’s my age, also a single mom & she’s encouraged me to find my voice, therefore winning back my happiness and my life. Thing is, I’m only allowed to drive to her home up to three days a week to work & I have to use that money just to get by and give the girls their basic needs. He took my youngest daughter and had braces put on her teeth and never made a payment, leaving that for me as well. Anyways, I just came across the possibility of this “asking for money” and it doesn’t hurt to try, I’ll never know if I never ask. I want so desperately to be able to break free from this miserable life, for none of us will get a do-over. I want to show my two girls that are still home, that it is possible to find good in the world & to get out of this situation forever! We need a car so I can get back and forth to work. If I have my on vehicle I can work as much as I can find. We also need to rent an apartment or house or mobile home and get the utilities on. If I can just get a leg up and be able to start over it would make our lives so different. Please, if anyone can help and would like to help myself and my two girls, Kelsey and Kaitlyn start over, I know I can take it from there. I feel so hopeless and stuck. It would be the most freeing thing just to be able to “not need” anything this man has to offer. It’s true, misery loves company! But this company does NOT love misery.
After my first marriage, I never thought I’d ever be an abused woman again. But, just because I don’t have a black eye or bruises, doesn’t mean I’m not being abused. The psychological effects of what we’ve been through, has already shown me that we (me & my girls)are definitely going to need therapy and counseling.
One day, I know, after all I’ve already lived through that I will be able to help another person, perhaps a mom and her four daughters to free themselves from abusive behaviors. I feel like, that’s my purpose in life. I’ve already experienced so much heartache and trauma that there’s probably not much I couldn’t speak on.
So, in ending, if anyone can find any extra money to help me and Kelsey ad Kaitlyn get out of these shackles of a life we’re living, we would be so very grateful! God bless you. If you can’t help, would you please please say a prayer? Thank you! 