This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do, and that’s ask for help. I have no family and no one to turn to for help. I am losing everything. I lost my home, my job, my car, my self worth and I don’t know what to do. I am drowning in debt and have no way to reestablish myself because I cant get a loan to get another car because of debt. I can’t get a good job because I have no car. I look for online jobs daily. To no avail. It started in 2016 when I got really sick. My doctor kept saying I was fine and blood work was good. But I ended up in and out of the hospital with bladder infections that turned into kidney infections, pneumonia, and then it went septic and I had three abscesses on my right kidney. I went to three different hospitals staying for weeks at a time with 2 of them till I finally went to Barnes Jewish Hospital that is a teaching hospital where they looked through every Avenue and gave me the medical care and attention I needed. I was sent home after 32 days in the hospital all together with a pick line to administer antibiotics everyday for 5 more weeks. Well I lost my job, my boyfriend at the time, whom I lived with split my eye open after I came home. Went to the Erie to have ot stitched and they wouldn’t help me and sent me home with him. I ended up leaving in an ambulance 3 hours later to which he told them to take me to the other hospital in town so he didn’t get in trouble. I was out for 3 days when I came to they observed me for one more day and sent me home. I went and stayed with a friend for a few days until I finally had to leave town. A friend offered me an apartment for low rent and I managed to stay there for 6 months before I left because I couldn’t find a job. Went and stayed with a friend that kicked me out. I put all my belongs except my bed and fee things in a storage unit. But I cant keep staying where I am for much longer. I need help with my debt and to get myself stable for my 2 daughters which are 19 and 8 and my granddaughter who is 6 months. My oldest and her daughter are staying with friends but couch hopping with a baby is no way to live. I have never been in this situation. I am always the one to help others. I still put together a Collection for people to donate for this Childrens home and orphanage. The whole time wondering how I am going to make it. Please help me and my children get back together. I miss them so much and I need them. They need me too and I cant drive to get my granddaughter so my daughter can work. I honestly don’t know where I will be of I cant get help. I am begging for help please. I will never stop paying it forward and helping others as I love to do already. I help the homeless and this year won an art contest that gave me $500 to donate to any charity, I gave it to my 8 year old who without a second thought said “i want to give it to the children who dont have mommy’s or daddy’s!” My heart rejoiced and tears of joy I gave thanks to God for giving me such wonderful soul. So i share this to ensure you that you will not only be helping my family but others as well. I will do all I can to pay this forward and more. Thank you for reading my summed up version of a long story.