I’m a single mom of 4, and just need help covering bills for 1 month as I’m actively looking for a job. I was married to what I thought was the love of my life but after having kids he turned into someone I no longer recognize. He walked out on us and went to stay with his mother. She doesn’t support what he’s doing but says she won’t deny him a place to stay. Now he is refusing to help with anything. I’ve been a stay at home mom for the past 6 years after my separation from the military because of my service connected disabilities. This was a decision we made together because I was in so much pain day in a day out from being on my feet and other aches and pains. I’ve been trying to see if it’s possible to get a work from home job but every place I’ve replied to just send me rejection email. It’s more than likely due to my gap in work history. I want to work it’s just physically hard on me. When I tell people my age and that I’m a veteran they’re surprised and I just tell them so am I because I was at peak health before joining the military, never had back problems, used to love running but now I can’t because everytime it feels like pins in my knees. I really feel so blindsided by this man, I’ve tried to be a good wife, I admit that I’m not perfect but I did do things a wife should do for her husband and took care of everyone’s needs but my own. I’m not in bad shape after having 4 kids but I’d like to feel more comfortable in my skin and losing maybe 20lbs will get me there. I’m not overweight by any means, I just hate my body. It feels like nothing is going right. I wanted to end my life 2 days ago due to all this stress. And what I get from the VA monthly wouldn’t cover half of the bills. I just can’t believe he would do this to us after seeing his mom struggle being a single mom after his dad left them from a young age. I’m just tired and don’t wanna be here anymore but I don’t want to leave my kids behind to suffer by being with such a vile person. I’m not a bad person I do whatever I can to make others feel comfortable around me so why have I been dealt such shitty cards? I’ve just been crying nonstop, I’m just drowning. This is my PayPal link if anyone is kind enough to help. paypal.me/Crovador