Happy Holidays. It took me alot to post online regarding this matter, although anonymous. In all my 35 yrs I have never liked asking for help. Growing up in foster care, being subjected to various types of abuse and poverty I felt as painful as my circumstances were it made me an even stronger and determined adult. I entered the workfield at 15yrs if age, started my family at 18yrs old, I have 6 wonderful children from that marriage. I have worked in the medical field for nearly 14yrs and more currently have tried to start my own business just as the Covid-19 pandemic started in 2020. However that was quickly shut down due to all the lockdowns from the Pandemic. At the start I was living my adult life the best I could, doing everything in my power to raise bright and morally respectful children. All while trying my hardest to protect them from the types of negatives I myself had to endure as a child. I put taking care of myself on the back burner, I neglected my mental and emotional health and for lack of better words ” sucked it up” and did what I thought was socially correct. My relationship with my children’s father ended after 16yrs. The journey of self discovery as a independent person was no walk in the park, after spending all of my adult life in a marriage, being a mother and working to provide for my family. It has been nearly 4 yrs since the separation from my children’s father and I reached my lowest rut mentally this year 2022. I have always been able to stand back up with the help of my mental health providers and lots of therapy sessions. I am a work in progress and know that things will get better. These past few holiday months have been extremely hard for me as I’ve experienced alot of emotional distress causing me to have to step back from my career to take better care of my health.
I’d really like to end this year 2022 on a bright positive state. Starting with my mindset and goal setting for 2023. Really focus on healing and building up my relationships with my children ranging in ages 7,8,10,14,16 and 17. I’m here to humbly inquire if anyone would please find it at all possible to monetarily donate to myself so that I may be able to hopefully pay some of my 2 months back rent, transportation means to spend the holidays/new years with my children. Possibly be able to get some small gifts for them as well.
For any and all that took the time out of thier lives to read my request. I am truly appreciative and wish you all a happy holiday season.