I am a single mother of 2 up shit creek without a paddle. I am unemployed, I’ve applied for 375 jobs, so not for lack of trying. The sperm donors of my children were drug addicts,addictions I wasn’t aware the extinct of until to late, and no help. The father of my youngest, and my last relationship, left me broken, I felt worthless, and that I deserved all this. He made me feel like I needed him to survive. He was mentally and physically abusive. Never to my kids, thankfully. I got away and I’m still beat down. My power bill is due, my phone bill has left my bank account in the negative, car insurance, and my kids get hungry on occasion. $1000 is the magic number that’d help me get where we need to be financially and I be comfortable with the situation. I have no family, it’s my kids and I against the world. My dad has step kids that are less embarrassing than the broke me so he’s divorced me as his daughter. My mom has a relationship with wine and pills, so no room for me. Not a clue where she even lives. I’m doing the best I can but each time I feel like I’ve made progress I get knocked back into my hole with no light in sight. I have tried every local organization and charity, each time being told no funds available. I could widen my job hunting range greatly if I could afford to pay a daycare up front. I want so badly to get my kids out of our mold infested apartment and give them a less stressed/worried mom but I’ve almost lost hope. It absolutely breaks my heart I can’t take my 6 year old to do not even all just some of the activities her friends get to do. I can’t even afford to send $2 with her to school to buy a snow cone at lunch. It’s devastating having to explain why my kids are sick from mold but we can’t afford anything else, and not to mention having to explain why the power gets shut off some months. I know I could always have it worse, but sometimes that doesn’t even seem possible. I pray every night God lead me in the right direction, and I pray I listen when the opportunity arises for answers and help. This is honestly my last hope. If anyone could help me, even if it’s something small, I would forever be grateful. I promise when I’m able I will pay whatever I get forward to someone else in my position. Thanks in advance.