I gained the strength after years of being a “kept at home” mom, being controlled, constant belittling and physical abuse (that actually led to multiple surgeries) to leave and try to create a better life for myself and my 4 boys! I left with a beat up Jeep, a small rental I had found, $800 & the naivety that people would have seen him for what he was. My name was never allowed to be on anything so he kept the home, property, financial accounts, vehicles and even received joint custody during the legal separation. He immediately hired a lawyer & moved on romantically, but still terrorizes me with threats of taking the children, constant comments about how I cannot ever fully leave, text & calls, peeping in my windows, random stop overs, obscene accusations during mediation and has the police randomly stopping by with new things to question me about. I stay strong and I continue to tell my boys it’ll work out, that the truth always prevails and that we will all soon be happy and free, but Im loosing my grip and finances. I thought I would be fine with no lawyer because I have no extra money, and no access to the savings or checking accounts, nor have I been granted anything yet. I ask whole heartedly for help to raise money for a lawyer. I tried to fight forward honestly and with dignity, but I cannot out think or escape the narcissist that I allowed to hold onto my spirit for so long. My children are flailing…grades dropping, anger & tears and one has even attempted suicide and had to be hospitalized. They have begged and pleaded to not have to return to their father’s house and I truly believed that I’d be understood or that I could stretch out the time to save up for an attorney, but he has pushed everything forward very quickly. I am tired and I am scared, but I know my children and I are close to peace and I will not quit because he holds the timing and money…because I do hold the hope! I thank everybody in advance for any donation to my family’s freedom and any kind words or prayers sent our way!