Hello,
My name is Jaci. I’m a mother of 2 beautiful babies. A son and daughter. Now I know you are all thinking, here’s another sob story or lazy mom taking advantage of the good. But I was good. I was the giver. I put everyone else first. That was my purpose , to make others happy…That and being a mom. I’m the midst of all the chaos of being a mother of 2 little ones and being a people pleaser, i slowly but surely lost myself. And everything that came with me. I gave and gave until there was nothing left to give. A year ago I was on top of the world. I wanted everyone else to be too. Today, im at rock bottom with not a soul by my side. Including my babies…it all feels like a blur. Im just in this repetitive state of depression. I feel invisible and lost more than I ever have before. But most of all im empty. My heart and soul are in another state. Their father out of spite and selfish jealousy filed for divorce and custody of my children while I was in another state expecting my little sister to pass any moment. I was kicked out and had a duffel bag with a few outfits only. Everything i owned and loved taken in a matter of seconds. We’ve been separated for a couple years. Him refusing to divorce. Help financially when he wanted. Keep the kids every time they went for a visit just to torture me. It’s been so hard. Now this. I love to be a mother. They gave me purpose and happiness again. I’m a good mother. I’ve made mistakes but none that should have resulted in this. I need them. Their grandmother now has the privilege of experiencing many firsts with my kids. I’m missing so many special things. I hurt every day. I physically ache for them. FaceTime is not enough. I don’t know anything going on in their lives. I don’t have a leg to stand on. Being kicked out with no money, no place to go, and hills or my own has taken every bit of energy and effort out of me. To constantly try and get nowhere. I’m behind on my car. A car that is on its last leg as well. I can’t get better because of course my name is on the title of a brand new vehicle I don’t have possession of. I maxed out credit cards. I’ve worked when able. I live in a tiny town with no job opportunity. And no vehicle reliable enough to commute. I’m in debt up to my ears and have borrowed til I can’t anymore. Eventually people want to be paid back. My daughter turns 3 in in less then 2 weeks. Mother’s Day is Sunday. I’m missing all of it because I can’t afford to drive 10 hours and pay for daily expenses. I’m missing all this because I can’t afford a lawyer to fight back but what would I bring them home too?? I can’t afford to finish the trailer I’ve been setting up for us. It’s always one thing or another. Every day something new added that of course cost money. I just want to see light at the end of the tunnel. I want to have something to look forward too. I want my babies. 3 months I haven’t held them. 3 long excruciating months. Bills, birthdays, lawyers , house renovations, car repairs, breathing. It all costs money. And I’m so far behind I can’t catch up. I want to give up. I need help. Unfortunately it’s me against the world. Understand every cent is so appreciated and is a blessing. Prayers are just a good. Thankyou all
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