Shatter & Broken Heart!!!
- Hi! My name is Jodi. April 26th 2021, I married a man I had been friends with for 22 yrs. That day was picked bc it was my daddy’s birthday. My daddy passed away October 25,2000, after being diagnose with multiple kinds of cancer. We discovered after his passing his cancer had been caused from serving in the Vietnam War from the Asian Orange they sprayed over all the camps and country over there. So since he couldn’t be there physically to give me away. I decided to do it on his birthday (his day) bc I thought his presence would be felt bc of it being “HIS DAY.” Unorganized, thrown together last minute, stressed to the max, are some of the thoughts some would have when thinking about my wedding day. Wouldn’t change it for a million bucks if offered will always be my response when ask about that day. My husband had had a crush on me from the very beginning but hid it from all for 22 yrs. He knew he had to do a lot of growing up before he ever thought about a relationship with me. I never not once had any kind of thoughts about him liking me as much as he told me he had all those years. I never looked at him that way bc he had been with my best friend at the time,for the first 5 years after he moved here. I don’t roll like that so he was in the hands off category in my mind and didn’t move from that category even after they had split up for good and her and I went our separate ways. Until 5 yrs ago. Times got hard for me as usual and I became homeless. One day he messaged me back from a message I had sent him 3-4 months prior. When he heard about me being in a homeless shelter he offered me his camper that set in his backyard at the time. I happily excepted and moved in. To speed this up alittle let’s just say just bc yu have been good friends with a man for 22 then yu become his girlfriend. Don’t think for one minute that just bc you have known him for that long that you know all about his likes and favorite and how he is. Bc I’m here to tell yu, yu will find out that yu don’t actually known a damn thing about them. So we fought a lot butted heads a lot bc we are both are the most dominate stubborn ain’t no one gonna control me or tell me what to do kinda people. Our fights were passionate and stupid. But we was in love everyone could see that atleast. I haven’t had the best life. Noones fault but my owns bc of the bad decision I made in my past. I had been in a bad place in my life homeless living from house to house using drugs everyday being the biggest piece of shit yu could think of bc I was punishing myself for losing the only thing that ever mattered to me bc of my bad decision making. My husband told me not long after we was married that he loved me so much and just wanted to give me the life I never had but had always deserved. He came from money and had a career where he made good money also. I’ve never been told them things from someone that could actually do that. I felt on top of the world. I was gonna grow old and gray with a man that really loved me unconditionally and that would always have my back. I thought. Not long after we were married, my son passed away from a drug overdose. He was only 24 years old, my world shattered. That’s when I found out that “having my back” ment being told how much a piece of shit mother I had been to my son amd that I need to stop dwelling on his death bc he just needed his wife back. This was only 2 weeks after my baby was laid to rest. I have taken his mental and sometimes physical abused for the last 5 yrs thinking he’ll stop all the abuse if I just could change everything about me. So that’s what I did. I became a person that is respected and loved and found my footing for the first time in life. I thought we was beginning to become the power couple he always said he wanted us to be. But I found out this morning I was wrong and he doesn’t want our marriage anymore and that I needed to find a place for me and my youngest son to live as soon as possible. I’ve been looking for work for quite some time now. I am broke and broken hearted and behind on all my bills. Last Feb we bought me a truck. I was a private caregiver to a awesome man for 2 yrs by then. Feb. 26 2023 he oassed away suddenly. I had gotten my truck just 2 weeks prior. I made really good money working but only took the responsibility of a truck payment bc my husband convinced me after several months that no matter what he would have my back so I would never ever lose my truck for nothing. He lied once again. I can’t find work bc of my background/bad decision making days. He has helped me with 3 payments in the last year. I am 4 months behind and hiding my truck to not lose it to repossession. I just need alittle help to get back on my feet again. To get my truck payments caught up and put insurance back on it and get me and my son a place to live. 20,000 would help me pay my truck completly offf and get me and my son a place to live with enough to pay a years worth of rent up front so I can find a job with less stress on my shoulders and hopefully land it. Being less stressed about just one or two things can give a person just enough energy/confidence to present themselves better to a potential employer to land a job. Please help me help myself. Thank yu for reading my story and God Bless alm of yu that help people like me.