This is really embarrassing for me to do because I don’t like to ask for help! However, I am in the end stages of over a year long divorce process and need financial help badly. My ex hasn’t given me a penny since the divorce was filed in August of 2018. In January of 2019 he up and left our state and moved across country to Texas where he is originally from, leaving behind 5 kids for me to take care of myself, 6 large dogs and 2 turtles. I have sucked all that my parents are can give from them. I have borrowed from my neighbor and a friend just to barely get by. I owe them over $15000.00. I have a large amount of debt…car loans…home equity loan…credit cards that are all maxed out now…I tried for months on end to get a half decent job but the market is not good and I had to take a part-time housekeeping job at a hotel just to pay the basics. My ex has been ordered to pay me child support and spousal support but is refusing to do so. I have only received one payment that my oldest daughter sent in for me and she got yelled at for doing so. I go through a 50lb bag of dog food every 3-4 days and can’t afford it so I am trying to re-home some of our dogs, but haven’t had any luck with that either. My stupid ass got in a car accident and totaled the only running vehicle I have and had to use the insurance money to pay bills. I have an ’04 pickup but it needs about $600 in repairs and I don’t have the money to fix it, so it sits and I am constantly using my parents vehicle. I have around $25000 in credit card debt. I owe around $25000 on the home equity loan. There are several vehicles financed in my name that are being used for my ex’s business and now he isn’t paying them so he can continue to ruin my credit for the second time. I already filed chapter 7 once about 15 years ago. I am desperately trying to avoid that again. I have barely been able to buy my kids school clothes. I go to the food pantry twice a month. I really need help. I am not lazy and I am not a scammer. I was always the bread winner in the relationship until he got going into his business, in which I lost my job over because he made me call into my job to help his business and from their I worked my ass off working and running the business…more than he ever has…and now I am virtually left with nothing. He is very ill also and has only been given about 5 more months to live. He also started seeing someone in Texas a month after he left and I’ve been told that he has left everything in his will and life insurance to her. He also has the IRS after him and he laughed at the fact that they might try and take away my house. That’s what a true P.O.S. he is laughing that our kids could lose the roof over there head. I just need to get this debt wiped out, get this divorce over and move on with my life.