Hi. I’m Madi. I am 27 years old. I have a 7 year old daughter and I am a recovering addict. It has not been easy getting clean and staying clean without the help of friends and family. But I have chose to do it for me and my beautiful baby girl. I grew up with addict parents and I refuse to let my baby girl grow up the way that I did. She deserves a much better up bringing and even though I didn’t see that in her first couple of years on earth, I sure see it now and I’m trying SO hard to give her and I, both, the wonderful life that we deserve. Unfortunately, we have no family to help us and covid dug me in a deeper hole than I could have ever imagined. I work so hard to keep the same roof over our heads and to make it seem to my baby girl that we don’t struggle but she is now starting to learn and see that life it isn’t easy and she asks how she can help make money and that breaks my heart. I never want to go back to the party life and I want to be able to give my baby girl everything she needs AND wants in life because I never had that and she deserves better than me. I want to go to cosmetology school and become a blonde specialist and eventually own my own salon or one chair gig in my own home and live a life where I love what I do and to be able to make my own schedule to be there for every big thing for my girl and be 110% financially stable so that my daughter never has to ask me what she can do to help her mommy make more money when she’s much too young to even be knowing any of those life struggles. We will remain on top and strong and resilient no matter what. But I can not continue digging this hole deeper and deeper when all I do is work as hard as possible to climb out of it but only digging deeper happens and I can’t seem to find the ladder to climb out… ever. My daughter deserves so much better and I don’t want her stressing out along side me at such a young age… my heart breaks that I can’t do more to shield her from knowing my struggles. Any little bit helps me and my baby girl grow stronger and more stable this year. I need to get us into a stable home where we can stay for more than just a few weeks or couple of months at a time. Moving so much is exhausting and not healthy for her little tired and kind hearted soul. I never ask for much help. Truly. But right now, I really really really need some extra pushes to help me out of this hole I am in so that I can show my baby girl what happiness and strength and never giving up is going to make us. All my love, gratitude & pure vulnerability. Please. Any little bit to help me show my one true love, the precious and perfect little girl I brought into this life how to be a hard working, HAPPY and truly kind soul from now to the end of time. I love you all. 🖤