I am trying to get back on my own two feet. I left my marriage of 21 years with the help of my best childhood friend. It was abusive from the start & over the course of the decades that followed became so bad that I believed the only way out was to die, either by the hand of my husband or by the depression that carved a hole inside me. I became a shell of the person I used to be. My friend helped me to see that I was worth saving & I left. The road to recovery was long & confusing because I had been with my husband since I was 16 so he was all I knew. I recall wondering how to act, what to say & even day to day activities were a mystery without the instruction I had been accustomed to for so long. I found myself apologizing for everything & I lacked the confidence to apply for a decent job. My friend owned a metal shop & he was a huge help to me in relearning how to live my life on my own. I worked along side my buddy in his shop for two years & slowly I came out of my shell. We even became room mates & later became business partners. My kids & I were finally happy. It was the perfect home; respect, love & trust were given to us right off the bat which was very strange to us but soon we got the hang of it & we laughed, had the freedom to our opinion’s & became the family we were always meant to be. Then one morning out of the blue my buddy had a stroke while driving. He was lucky not to injure himself further or hit anyone else on the road. It was a mild stroke caused from blood clots that formed in his heart. His heart was weaked to 25% functionality due to a heart attack that was thought to be indigestion or some other form of “not a big enough deal to go see a doctor” & it will pass illness. We were hopeful as the diet changes, workout plan & the wide variety of new bottles filled our medicine cabinet. The car was repaired but it seemed like my friend was not so easily to bounce back. He took some time off work to recover, which I thought was a great idea. So, for the two and half weeks that followed we stuck to the good eating plan, watched tv in our underware, played monopoly till’ the wee hours of the morning & gave our spa more use in that two weeks than it had in its lifetime. I handled the business matters from my phone when possible but I had to go in this particular morning for a face to face meeting with potential clients. I drove the treacherous 8 block commute back to the house & realized at that moment how happy my life was, how thankful I was to be alive & how the little things make life so great. My old friend declared his true love for me & confessed to loving me since high school. He left town heart broken, when I told him one night, way back then, that I was going to marry the biggest mistake of my life. Things made so much more sense now. We talked all night & in the morning he got on one knee & asked me to be his wife. I accepted proudly. He slid the ring on my hand & left the room to make breakfast. I used the bathroom & remember thinking how shitty I looked first thing in the morning. I jumped back in bed waiting for my fiancé. I asked if he needed help but no answer. Instantly my heart sank & my worst fears were confirmed at I approached the kitchen & saw him laid out on the floor. I ran so fast that my bare feet slid around the corners, leaving carpet burns on the balls of my feet. It seemed like an eternity to unlock my phone, open the dialer & get a 911 operator. “Ambulance” I yelled as I ran back to him. “Please!” I begged “He’s had a stroke…again. This isn’t supposed to happen. Please”
Unfortunately, my friend, my partner, my fiancé, my world was gone.
At the time I didn’t have a clue what to do. This man who claimed to be a good friend promised to help me out in my time of need. Which turned out all bad. In less than three months this friend stole everything of value from my home & my shop. My kids & I left with a secret one hundred dollars & a work truck.
We are staying with friends now, safe but long to have our own place one day. I sold the truck & purchased a jeep but have since had issues with, no longer runs reliably & tags are expired. I lost my job as a result.
So, I’m asking for any leads on jobs I can do from my phone, money to insure, tag & repair my car or buy a running used car, or possibly someone feels generous, maybe a bit of cash or even a loan to buy a small mobile home to call my own? Any help at this point will be very much appreciated. My paypal is paypal.me/LindseyBrewer
Thank you for reading my story.