Hello. I am not sure how to do this, I never really ever asked for help before. Yet, I have tried and done everything else that I could, my situation isnt getting better. So , any donations will help regardless, no matter how small. This is going to be real hard for me to type, I am already starting to tear up..
So, here is my life, what was and is now.
I got married at the age of 20. So in love. I have a big , kind, caring , understanding, forgiving heart.
I had three(3) children.
The year of 2015 in the month of October, My husband had left my children and myself, he wanted a divorce.. So, we became homeless. No belongings, no car, just clothes for each of us for 2 weeks. My parents found out my situation and we worked out a plan and moved in with them. They let me rent their 3 car garage to live in. Its attached to the house, had a wall heater and insulation paneling. I found a job near by at a meat locker in my rural area. I started working there middle of November of 2015. I worked as much as they allowed me to work.. In the year 2017 My body pain was getting worse, my feet , lower back, wrists, and knees. I just could not do it any more, couldnt push myself any farther. I had to quit at the end of October, I had to focus on my health issues, I had always cared and done things for others, I neglected my health.. November came, many doctor appointment’s later, I decided to apply for disability.. I was deniedthe 1st time. Then found a lawyer to help. Them December came, I had an emotional and mental break down, thats what the doctor called it. On the 27th of December my family called 911, a ambulance took me to the hospital. While in the hospital , I died twice. They didnt release me until January 5th of 2018. Now have alot more issues that the lawyer used to help me get disability. Then covid hit, which made the whole process take even longer. Which made me not qualify for normal disability, so they had to try for SSI Disability. Finally after denied a few times, i got to talk to the judge that’s specialize in Disability cases over the phone in june of 2020. I was declared physically and mentally disabled by law. July I received my payments. After the $6k the lawyer fee was, I had left $11k in back payments from when they legally claimed me disabled January 2018 was onset. So, I requested the money to buy a used car, I had the proof of what and where and what car lot to show social security where the money was going. I got the money, got the car and got a little of my independence back.
Fast-forward to present, rite now , today is July 30th 2023, its 11:02 pm. I still live with my disabled parents in the garage I rented. I had manage to turn the garage into a 2 bedroom, family room and a kitchen( without a sink and water). I have all used and free stuff I collected to furnish my living space to make it feel kinda like a home. My 3 children are teens. My car is on its last leg, I had hit 2 deer at nite, I managed to replace by me, both fenders, front bumper and grill, headlights. My driver side doors i have not replaced, they are still caved in. I had to have someone i know who owns a mechanical shop work with me on payments to replace the radiator,cooling fan and such, got that paid off. Now, the car needs oil change, basic tune up and the timing chain is going out. 😟. On top of that and with in the past 9 months, my grandmother passed away, my 8 year old niece had a brain tumor and fluid on her brain and is doing maitiance chemo . School is about to start in a week or so, they need clothing and school supplies. I am needing surgery for my issues, but i keep putting it off cause mentally cant get myself to see doctor to start process. I am literally drained every thing I got emotional, physical. From SSI disability, I get $914 a month. Rent is $385 a month, not including heating and cooling. I do get food stamps, but a little over $200 doesnt cover full month. Food stamps would be more if I didnt get child support, but he dont pay. He had arreage of 14k. He is his own boss, owns a body shop body paint repair. He easily makes 100k a year, but he lied under oath many of times, and to the IRS. When the court asked for proof of his income this past February to bring his taxes, he only claimed the 1099 he got from carlot jobs, he didnt claim all cash jobs. So, he says he makes 15k a year. So, they prorated 3 years and lower his payment, and he still isnt pay n. I struggle so much, I am always in a state of survival, worry . Im to the point that I am gonna need to dumpster dive for food. I already go to local food pantry, allowed once a month. I follow the mobile food pantry truck with in a 45 min drive in any direction from where i live in my rural area. My mother been asking for back rent i owe from 2018-2020 so she can pay the 7k she owes from grandmas funeral expenses, my parents only truck needs tires, oxagen sensors and a tune up. There are 4 families living on my parents property, and the only ones with valid driver’s license and a vehicle is my dad and I. We do all the driving for the others of the family. My parents are struggling, they only need 50k more to pay their house off, all their bills went up cause the other 2 family s (relatives) had life change n problem s, where they are trying to get disability as well. So, the only help money wise my parents are getting out of 3 extra families, is what i pay her for rent.😭😭
I have lawsuits against me for debt because i became disabled that needs to be taken care of, which adds up to almost $18k. Food is to much money to eat healthy, gas is to high to drive in a rural area, our walmart or kroger is a 30 min drive one way. I have only bought on sale items, or coupon s, or marked down items that were about to expire.
And my health issues are the last thing on my mind. Because i am worried about everything else and everybody else. I have die’n bones in both my wrists, I need 3 disc replaced in my lower spine, need both knees replaced, and both my feet need surgery as well.
I never went on a family vacation. Its been 6 years since I could even take my children to a restaurant to order and be served a nice meal. 😭
I just dont know anymore what to do. So, here I am, my life.. I hope who ever is reading this can forgive me for how I typed this, I am full fledge sobbing, and my brain is all over the place. Thank you for take’n the time to even read this , if there is anyone. So, anything for a donations will help, even if its only $10 , thats money i didnt have, and I still am very greatful and appreciative..
Here is my paypal tag, i also dont know if the link will work.
Thank you, peace be with you.