Thank you so much for opening this post. You could be what changes my life, or more importantly. My beautiful little boys life. He and I had it kinda hard the first couple years.. His father was terribly abusive towards me and my son would witness it.. one day when my son was around 2 years old, his father had knocked me to the ground.. My son ran in between us and said “no hit mama” and pushed on his father. It was then I got the courage to try to leave his father. I knew I had to and as long as I had my son , I knew I’d be ok. Fast forward to present day here, multiple protection orders so I remain safe have been posted so that he stays away from me, for my safety. He is apparently stepping up though being a father, I have not seen it, though I have heard from reliable sources that he is doing better these days, he got some things handled. He only sees our son once every two weeks, though, so there’s not much room to mess that amount of time up. I just hope he is..
Back to my little hero, he is about to be six years old. His birthday is in the beginning of October. As I’m sure you already know, COVID absolutely destroyed my household and I have no idea how I will ever pull myself out of this debt. I owe everything to everyone and I have no one to help me. Sadly, I don’t have any family that’s living any longer .
I am the sole caretaker of my son. it’s a hard job, being a single working mom, but I have to do it. I will clean homes, walk dogs, drive for instacart.. ect… when COVID hit, I lost all my families as they were now ordered to stay home and wouldn’t need me. Or there were other issues like I had no childcare as daycares we’re now closed. I enjoyed very much though being with my son on lockdown. He looks up to me for everything…. and I’m letting him down. I am thousands in debt between my rent, utilities, credit card, car payment, late fees everywhere.. I struggle buying enough food and often I go to bed hungry so that my son gets all he needs. I make sure he’s comfortable and hide this all very well from him.. but it’s becoming too much. It’s too stressful, it’s too obvious somethings wrong with mommy when she’s crying in the bathroom late at night.
I need help before my depression takes another leap down hill here. I have to be strong for my son but how can I be?? I work my butt off driving around for instacart and doing other freelance jobs. I barely have time to sit down for five minutes, and yet the money never actually makes much of a dent into my debt. So I’m just running and running and running myself thin. My car needs repaired, it needs inspected. It needs a wheel bearing, brakes, rotors, tires, and some other tie rods or something I cannot say exactly but it’s in the front end. The garage will cut me some slack… but it’s still going to be too much. My wheel is about to fall off the car, it’s just not even safe at this point but I have to drive it to make money to put food on the table.
I want my son to have a good birthday, I want to buy him that Star Wars LEGO Camel , and some other select things. Nothing good major.. but I can’t even think about spending that money because I have to pay my cars repairs, I can’t pay the cars or I’m going to be behind a again on my rent. I have been threatened to be evicted and im
terrified. I am absolutely terrified of losing our home.
I’ve been through so much, but this is too much to continue going through. I am begging someone, anyone donate anything please
To help us. You have no idea the impact on my life, or my sons life, you will have. Everything helps please… I’m just so hungry, and tired, and worried sick, I’m so sick of being scared! I can’t stand it. I’m so scared I won’t make it back out and we will be on the side
Of the road with nothing..
Thanks again for reading, I’m sorry for the rant/ page full of anxiety here.. I don’t have any other options but to hope someone out there will help us. Help me To pay my .. (rent owed, car repairs, car payments owed, credit card, utilities… and most of all, be able
To give my little guy a good birthday with balloons and a nice big cake!
Thank you again for your time.
I am asking for $5000