Since the beginning of 2020, I already knew it was going to be a hard year. Mid February i discovered that my partner of 4 years had been seeing someone else and was expecting another child. Since we lived together, I asked if I could keep the house so I wouldn’t have to move our kids away from their home. That caused many issues. Since he supported us financially, he said the house remained to him and we had to leave. I had been a stay at home mom for about a year 1/2 and was also expecting a child. Finding out you’re expecting another child when your partner is with one else and also expecting made my pregnancy very emotional. However I was determined to move out and start from the beginning and provide for myself. End of March I gathered my items and was getting ready to head out. As I was trying to leave, he kept pushing me and wouldn’t let me get to the door. Soon enough he put his hands on me and left me with a bruised face. I called the cops and was able to move out with my sister. We went to court and I was granted the house so we moved back and he moved out. It was just problems after problems because he felt entitled to the house since he said he paid all the bills and he was the man of the house and he deserved to stay and I should be the one to leave. To not have any more issues I agreed to leave again. I moved back with my sister. Around July, he came to destroy my car (slashed tires windows and poured sugar in gas tank) I couldn’t afford to fix it so I had to let my car go and remained car less. I had been working for about 2months but having two kids I paid for day care and helped with the bills. And now had to save for a new car. It is hard getting around and asking for rides because you feel like you’re a burden to others. I would take the bus to work and sometimes walked all while being pregnant. In September I gave birth to my daughter. We did have custody agreements so I had to take him the kids a couple of days after my daughter was born. I couldn’t leave the newborn as she was breastfeeding and wasn’t on formula. Needless to say, he got angry and said I was only breastfeeding to keep him away and put his hands on me again. He was arrested but was bailed out the next day by his partner. I decided I would leave the state and move to TN with my mother so I began saving for that instead for a car. He agreed to let me relocate with the kids. End of November I got a rental and packed us up but still went back to his house as I packed all the rest of our belongings that I couldn’t take to my sisters house. I’m trying hard to be civil and allow him to speak to his kids whenever he calls I send pictures and videos as much as I can. I work at chili’s as a server but with covid I barley make enough. He doesn’t provide financially for them even while being on child support he doesn’t pay. I feel stuck like I can’t or haven’t moved out of this struggle and feel like no matter how much I work or try to get in a better place I am going no where. I save enough for a down payment and then something else comes up. I walk to and from work majority of the time. It’s hard trying to stay strong when you have so many obstacles. But I know I did the right thing leaving and I am trying with everything to be financially stable. I don’t have a specific amount because I would and will be grateful for anything that is given to me to help us get back on track.