I am desperately seeking help for a very dire situation for me and my children. If you’ve read to this point, PLEASE finish reading my message. If you can’t help, please point me in some direction, any direction, that will help me. I am struggling to get out of a very bad domestic situation. I have suffered mental abuse and physical abuse (more of the former than the latter). And a series of awful events have transpired in the past week that make it evident I need to leave ASAP, including being choked to the point of not being able to breathe. (Not for more than a few seconds, but it scared me.) I have no bruising, no abrasions, and no proof. There are no shelters here (very small and rural, and I mean in the mountains) and my family has been turned against me by this manipulator. (Long story short: After numerous occasions of being belittled, mocked, threatened, and physically assaulted, he attempted to withhold my medication and car keys from me so I couldn’t leave. I lashed out and smacked him in the face, which, coincidentally, his mother recorded on her phone and shared with my entire family.) Now, my family is angry, at me of all people, because I carelessly and physically assaulted someone. I have always made him out to be this incredible person, and covered his abuse because I was taught not to air your dirty laundry. So this excellent perception of him, along with his mother’s video, makes me look like an abuser. Nobody will answer my texts, or calls, and I’m starting to worry. The police, who are also family to him, have seen the video as well, and let me know that I’m extremely lucky not to be going to jail and I should thank my husband for not reporting me. This was gut wrenching to hear. The only avenue I have is leaving with my children (whom he treats like princesses, and I’m glad he does). We have three little girls, ages four, two, and ten months. He will viciously come after me when he realizes I have taken his children. I own a small business (which has been shut down since April of last year due to COVID-19, and is suffering financially), but, to keep us afloat, I started doing Instacart more frequently. He works as well, and receives a paycheck, which I never see. I am making around $500 per week, not including cash tips. (Any claim I make to you can be verified.) I also, up until last week, have worked on my family’s farm since before I was an adult. (I’m a 30 year old female.) I have a dependable vehicle as well. I would have access to money, but my earnings are deposited into a joint account, of which I was threatened if I changed. He was unexpectedly called to work tonight, which he initially refused but eventually accepted. I have been slowly, and discreetly, packing mine and my children’s bare necessities, and have hidden them. I will not have another chance like this to gather what I can without conflict or abuse. I am asking for financial help (whether it be a loan, donation, or anything) to get me through a week or so, which would provide me ample time to churn out some overtime from Instacart, and for food and gas. (I initially sought public assistance, but aid is only by appointment now. It would be two weeks before an appointment is available.) I also would qualify for the minimum, because of our combined earnings and because we are married. The opportunities to make money are there in the neighboring county, as there is only a handful of other shoppers and a growing list of orders that sit unfulfilled until the grocery store closes because we can’t get to them. I have arranged childcare from a trusted friend who isn’t charging me a dime, thank God. I have a Cash App card that I use on occasion. It’s the only card he’s not taken from me because he thinks it’s tied to our bank account (which it isn’t) and would be notified of any activity. I am desperately seeking help. If you, or anyone on here can help, please do. He also took my stimulus deposit and withdrew the cash at the ATM so I couldn’t access it. I’m not ignorant, and I’ve stayed as long as I have because of my children. This is the only world they’ve ever known, but enough is enough. When someone restricts my way of breathing, I consider that an imminent threat to my life. I apologize for my post being so long, but hopefully someone will hear me. I don’t even know how much to ask for because I would hate to insult someone or be laughed at. I have roughly six hours to get out (assuming he doesn’t come home early, which he tends to do to keep an eye on me). If anyone can help, or directions to someone else, I will be forever grateful. I have frantically searched Google for assistance, been denied so many loans due to lack of credit, been pointed to so many dead ends… I’ve embarrassingly contemplated illegal and/or promiscuous avenues out of desperation, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it because my children might see the results of those actions later on in life. I’m starting to have no hope, and I’m afraid I’m stuck here. Thank you for reading. The author of this website told me to include my PayPal.me. Please locate it below:
PayPal.me/yuppiek