This is very difficult for me, next to that I feel a lot of shame and I am also disappointed in myself. I am not a person to put myself in the spotlight, let alone for asking for money..
I had a divorce beginning of this year which I wanted, after waiting almost a year to give my ex some time to process it. She needed this extra time, otherwise she would commit suicide which I obviously didn’t wanted to happen. I had to pay her a lot of money, because I wanted the house (Because I was the only one providing, so I was the only once capable of paying the bills)
Early this year I temporary moved to a family member to live there so I could create a distance from it and focus on my life which helped a lot. True Corona didn’t helped as well, but luckily I was with the family member so I had some nice distractions (So as the family member, as even some good things can happen during a bad time like Corona). This time with family member gave me as a person some hope again. During the divorce I booked a vacation to USofA which helped me thru the whole divorce, unfortunately, this vacation has been postponed 2 times and probably now I need to cancel it.
But then after some months I found a woman on which I had some dates with, but she had to go to the other side of the world for family circumstances. I was in love, so I waited for her and we had contact via whatsapp on a daily base. But she needed money, after she has used all of her money to pay some bills in the court. She tried to get some properties on her name which was from her late father. So I lend her the money, knowing that I would get it back when she got the properties on her name. Once the properties where on her name, she would sell it and she could pay me back. But then another bill needed to be paid and that went on a few times. In the mean time I had to apply for several loans, which I got a few times until it didn’t. She said every time she would pay it all back and I believed her, because I was in love and would never questioned her.
Then she committed suicide. I don’t know why or what happened that led her to do this, maybe she was trapped between not able to pay that “last” bill or the lawyer that also needed to be paid. Or it was a scam, on which I don’t think it was the case but maybe my love for her troubled the view on that.
Now I am stuck with a huge debt that I need to pay of every month, my mortgage had to be increased to payout my ex and thus my monthly pay has also gone up. I need to cancel my vacation that helped me thru going the divorce, knowing there is light at the end of the tunnel. It seems that I am way back in the beginning of the tunnel again.
So I am desperate in need of money.
Thank you for at least reading my message and hopefully – and this is really, really hard for me – you are able to provide me some money to get rid of my debt. I know I am very stupid that it all has lead to here, but maybe the world out there isn’t that dark. That there are really good people in the world, willing to help others that are in need. I am a very positive minded person, I am fond of (my) cats (which I don’t see every day), I am active in sports, donate blood when possible and since a few months I am an stem cell donor. I try to think I am “one of the good guys”, but just had a very bad time.
Thank you for willing to donate, I would have given you a huge hug if that would be possible. (I’m a hugging guy ;-))