Many people around the world have much worse stories than I. The only thing unique about my story is that it is mine! Most of this world hit hard times during the pandemic, mine started much earlier than that. The latter part of 2018, I had recently divorced my second husband and my daughter was in her senior year of high school.
I was not incapable of taking care of my daughter and I, on the contrary I had a very well paying job. I keep thinking back to figure out how everything changed so drastically and I can only come up with the mirror I broke after my ex-husband moved out. Because ever since then my life has literally been one sh*t show after another.
A series of unfortunate events just kept hitting me one after another, from my father having a cardiac arrest, to being fired from a job I had left my previous 10 year employer for, to almost losing my home, being fired from another job, my twin granddaughters being born at 24 and a half weeks gestation and both weighing under 2 lbs and requiring constant medical care, to losing my oldest daughter unexpectedly, then came COVID!
During COVID I still had my career but unfortunately my son and daughter-in-law were in need of so much financial support due to the twins early births and medical expenses. My family will always be stuck in the middle, make too much for any help and not enough to cover unexpected expenses. So this grandma did what needed to be done and helped my kids as much as I could. Needless to say this ended with me in jail and having to sell my home to cover the remaining medical expenses for my granddaughters.
I did not do anything to harm anyone, when everyone was getting their free COVID money (which I did not and neither did anyone else in my family) I just provided many of the people, who never really worked to begin with and always needed to get high, what they wanted and got their free COVID money from them. I will not say I regret any of it, I was able to give my son and his family over 30 grand in 2 months. I will always prefer going to jail over any of my kids because they have babies to take care of and by doing what I did I was taking care of my babies.
After spending 8 and then 4 months in jail, I am now on probation, I have moved to a different county. I don’t really have much support, I left my boyfriend who could not stay faithful for a few months while I was away.
My kids are young and already have a lot on their plates with the twins who still require many medical appointments/therapies every week.
Needless to say all the jail and recent felonies on my record it is really hard to find a decent job, every sign says “Now Hiring” except the fine print below also says “except felons”. I never had a felony until I was 42 years old and let me tell you I regret judging many felons that said they couldn’t get a decent job cause I figured they just were not looking hard enough. Nope, it is really really hard to find a decent job. I used to make a salary of 85k a year, the only job that would hire me was housekeeping for 12 an hour, that does not work well for the cost of living right now at all. So I went back to working at a bar, we will just leave it at that.
I am drowning in bills every month because it is still one sh*t show after another for me. I have even resorted to trying my hand at gambling online to increase the money, it works sometimes but not always so now I am here asking for help. I am exhausted and I am sure that is the reason I have been getting sick from something at least once a month since I have been out of jail (it has been since September 2022) and keep having to take a week here and a week there off because you pretty much cannot go anywhere sick anymore!2
I am currently behind a month on my bills and would like to pay this month coming up, which will give me some breathing room and be able to manage it afterwards.
To be exact for the past due bills and Aprils bills I need $2785.51