Hello. I’ll try to be simple. I really don’t like people feeling sorry for me but this site seems like a bunch of really nice people just looking to help out. I can see how scammers and people would try to take advantage here. Thats not my goal
I, like many other American millennial, I grew up under a big screen. I used the media to run away from my problems. From that perspective, it seems sad. But I truly believe that’s how some of the greatest artists of all time are made.
The problem and at the same time beautiful fact is that EVERYONE wants to pursue this life. Due to the dream being so public on shows like American idol, the pursuit for fame fueled me.
I wanted to do it all. Which I did. I wrote music in high school and won state awards for it. When I ventured into acting I brought my school its first state speech championship. I always had trouble finding balance between my band and writing music for it and my new found love for the arts. I was VERY good at both! I found some success in LA making my way onto Glee for a very small part. It was a taste of a life I knew I wanted, but could not emotionally or financially at such a young age.
10 years later, here I am. I fell in love with a girl and we currently live together. I want to marry her.
This past year has been the most productive I’ve ever had. I was severely depressed and diagnosed with extreme adhd. It was hard for me to do but I got healthcare because I was more depressed than I had ever been. The doctor explained that this is what could make me creative but this is also why I’ve had a hard time with follow through. Since seeking help I opened up my own business singing at parties and events. I got TREMENDOUS feedback and things were going so well and for the first time! I was bringing home the bills WHILE doing what I love. I even played at the prestigious London house downtown Chicago on Wacker Drive. I also launched my own podcast on Apple to reach out to others like me who have depression and love to play games instead of drinking or doing drugs. I want to spread a positive message to people and show them theres always another way.
In December I lined up a reoccurring gig at a very nice restaurant i my area. A week in I got a whooping cough and it gave me the WORST laringiits I have EVER had. My voice hasn’t been the same and I missed out on thousands if not more and buried my relationship with the owner. One day I went to see spiderman with a free movie pass I had with next to no gas, and my bank as it looked in the picture. I got to the counter and the girl asked if I had the dollar for tax. I went back to the car for change and thats when I broke down. Im SO done being in this position,
I know that I’m special. I have follow through I’m extremely talented and I can say this because Ive gotten bad feedback when I started. I know a fake compliment and 20 dollar tips have become A LOT more frequent.
I will never give up on my dream as long as I have my talent. While living with this mentality alone is ok, I need to give my girlfriend financial security. She’s the best thing I’ve ever had. Which is why im looking for an hourly job to hold us over.
Every support system in my life believes in me and I couldn’t be more thankful. I am drowning in debt and my rent is past due. I know I can get myself out of this with a push. Right now its hard to leave the house or record an episode because of the weight of these problems. Im an emotional person who bears a lot of feeling. Im hurting because I cant work right now the way I know how. If you can help, thanks. I appreciate you reading and if all you can spare is a prayer, that will do just fine. Have a nice day and thank you.