Hello to whomever is taking the time to read this, thank you for taking the time.
Here’s a brief description of why I’m where I am.
After working for this company where I experienced almost two years of bullying I was forced to quit before getting another job. My health was declining and no amount of taking care of myself (especially on the weekends) and changing what I could to stay employed was able to help my situation. During my time there I wanted to keep my job so I worked towards making changes, direct communication, reports to HR, changing my schedule etc but none of it made a real difference. I’m the only black employee amongst 40+ employees and everyday biases, underestimation etc from coworkers and sometimes customers was very demeaning and heartbreaking. It was to the point my boss felt helpless and would constantly apologize to me. I knew quitting would cause me financial struggle and I prepared for stability for 3-4 months out hoping that’d be enough time to get a job but unfortunately that hasn’t worked out in my favor. I’m still not giving up and looking for a job fitting for my qualifications and pay with the environment that doesn’t have excessive racism or unfair identity based treatment. That’d be nice.
Asking for help has been rough for me but I’ve humbled myself. It’s a very vulnerable space to be in. But I’ve been reminding myself everything passes and hope I can pass it forward. I’m used to taking care of everything but I know life happens and it doesn’t hurt to ask especially people I don’t know personally. I’ve asked my loved ones but I no longer want to add more burdens since I know none of them are fully financially comfortable or comfortable enough to help me multiple times.
To be direct, I need two months of rent $2500 total to breathe again, pay off credit cards $1500 (that alone would give me a lot of wiggle room to pay other bills), and $400 for monthly bills & more (phone, WiFi, electricity, cat annual vaccinations & cat food-I have two adorable ones). This is all racking up for me and I feel like I cannot catch a break. I always work tirelessly to guarantee stability and it’s not because of lack of trying or hard work that I’m here. Sometimes you end up somewhere and you gotta accept, learn and ask for help while making better choices. Whatever amount or kind words would be appreciated! Thank you.