If someone who reads this is able to help me out, I’d be more than grateful.
My situation results in a multitude of outside factors, which I will dismiss for the most part in the following, as they are only catalysts, not the underlying problem.
As a young adult without parental guidance during childhood, I have grown to be very diligent, hard working and cannot remember missing a day of work while employed, unless severely ill. As a former “ward of the state” I am used to getting by on my own, however this came at the cost of me being forced to dismiss many of my mental health issues that have accompanied me throughout the years, focusing on earning money, a degree and not getting kicked out of the apartment(s) I lived in. In the years leading up to my first post highschool degree, I suffered severe abuse, resulting in an array of mental breakdowns, self harm and destabilisation of my pre-existing mental condition. However, after proving my fortitude despite the aforementioned and getting a part time job, planning for university in the future and consulting a new, very supportive psychiatrist, I crashed. I feel more empty, delusional and distressed than I have ever before and have successfully ruined my latest relationship. We still live together, however now of course the monetary situation has to be figured out. I work the maximum hours I am allowed to during the week and cannot keep the apartment by myself, which is the same for him. Our upcoming bills exceed what we have been making for the past few months, and with the added stress of the current situation, we won’t be able to both afford moving out into cheaper flats (as they are also very hard to come by in our home city) within reasonable time, while I can remain focused on my psychiatrist treatment, without falling into even more debt.
While my ultimate goal is to rebuild this relationship, my primary concern is my mental health, as my psychiatrist deems me severely unstable currently and I am on medical leave until I am able to leave the house by myself without suicidal intentions. Of course, clinics are expensive, and before I can even think about going, I have to get the finances back on track, as we have been dropping more and more into debt with each bill payed over the past months.
As of right now, the debt which my ex-partner and I have accumulated surpasses our disposable credit line, and in order for us to get back on track, we require 2.000€. Even if we worked full time, we wouldn’t be able to spare that amount of money, and we have no one in our families to turn to.
Any donation will be greatly appreciated and can be transferred directly via paypal.