Right before covid, I had a major accident and was in bed for over half a year. At that time, I was living in my parent’s house, but everyone was living in other states. I was behind on bills due to my disability check always being late and my mother still forced me to pay bills for her. She even forced me to get a loan to pay for her house bills. Until one day, I received a message from my sibling that telling me I should start finding a place to move out. I found out my mother had listed the house on sale without telling me. I was not fully recovered and was forced to move out in a week. It was right before thanksgiving. I found an apartment and moved out right away. I went back to the house to check if I left anything behind, and found out my mother already changed the lock, so I couldn’t even enter the house. (We never had a good relationship, which when my father was alive he caught her being very different compared to other siblings).
Once I got to a new apartment, I found a new job and did not have time or money to continue my physical therapy. I was in pain a lot and covid started. I lost my job after. I was behind my bills and I started to get sick. I had surgery and that added on top to my financial issues. I had no choice and had to move to another apartment building during quarantine. I got another new job after months. Little do I know, my boss started to pay me late, and finally she ghosted me. She never paid me for the work I did. She even moved. I had to apply for rental assistance program but took a long time to approve and only covered a little of my rent. I did not know that landlords are not supposed to evict you during that pending decision. My landlord sent me twice eviction notice. I was so stressed and scared to be homeless, so I had to call my relatives to ask for help and finally told them the truth between me and my mother and asked for help. Then, my mother decided to tell them with fake information. She said she has been helping me and I have been taking drugs and giving money away to friends, which is not true. I did not think a mother would do so, and all my relatives started to send me nasty messages, which lead to me killing myself. My best friend and boyfriend found me, and I got rescued. I am still behind bills and no bank loans were being approved due to no income. I finally have some friends to trust me to do the freelance marketing job for their small businesses, but my bills have been staking up and my landlord giving me trouble, banks are calling me for payments, and my electricity are getting termination notice.
I don’t know what to do and I do not want to go into depression with suicidal thoughts because there are friends and family who care about me. So please if anyone could help me out to pay the rent and bills, I would truly appreciate it and have some hopes.