Since the beginning of 2020 life has taken a toll on my family and I. When covid hit we lived in a terrible apartment building in a crowded university town with two kids and one on the way. As the months went on living there, our landlord became creepier and creepier. There would be days he’d stand outside our door breathing heavily, other days he would knock on our door to complain about something like the baby crying, and other times he would wait mere minutes for my husband to leave for work and he’d walk into our apartment with our knocking and everything. The doors would be locked so he would use his key and just snoop around. Many times we had to contact police. It got to the point we had to move, but with the prices and the world going crazy- we had no other option than another run down house- this time a trailer. It had a great yard but the neighborhood was not pleasant. Our house was robbed multiple times which absolutely defeated me. We just couldn’t get by. So finally we decided we’d leave the province and head for a better life!
Boy was I wrong. The move was crippling, our debt is only growing and we are further from where we wanted to be than the beginning of this explanation of my crappy life. This new place is eating propane like crazy- we are paying $900 a month, our rent is $2100 a month for a place where the roof is caving in and I’m terrified that we will either die here or become homeless. My kids are young and sometimes I can’t send them to daycare because of a runny nose these days, so we are out that source of income for those days. With the prices of food and gas on top of the lack of affordable housing I feel like I am failing my family. I’ve opened my own painting business but it hasn’t picked up yet so that’s also harrowing on my soul.
To top off our 2020, the intense grief our family went through broke so many other families. In December 15 2020 my brother boat went down while they were scallop fishing and he is still aboard the boat. He was not only my best friend but also my kids as well. We are all devastated.
I feel lost, ashamed and frightened.
I am terrible at asking for help but it is my only resort currently.
thank you in advance