Hi everybody.. My name is Jesse, and I am here today humbly asking for help. This is something that has never been easy for me, and not asking for help has made my life considerably harder. But i really have no other options right now.
I have managed to turn my life completey around in a year and half, but now I am overwhelmed with “real life” issues and struggling to keep up with everything financially.
Roughly 2 years ago I was literally using a backpack as a pillow and a sidewalk as a bed. In that backpack was everything i owned. I was addicted to heroin and desperately wanted to get off of it, but had no idea how. I lost everything in my life, from everything material, friends, family, and most importantly i was extremely close to losing my son, forever. That was the hardest thing to ever go through, and my addiction almost made that a reality. I pretty much gave up on life. I truly didnt care if i lived or died. In fact, I kinda welcomed death. I was so depressed, so alone, so lost.
I ended up overdosing on heroin, I and thank God my life was spared that day. I had what some people might call a spiritual awakening, and had flashes of my family, friends, and my son. I realized that there was still people that cared about me, and that were worried sick about me. That was the day i turned my life around. I put myself into detox, and then went to a rehab. I eventually began to work for the rehab, and I was helping people who were going through the same struggles that i was going through. It was very gratifying, and by helping others, at the same time it was helping me. Helping me stay clean and sober, helping me stay on the right track, and most importantly, helping me remember where i came from, and the nightmare i called life could happen again at any moment.
I eventually got into the carpenters union because there was no way i was gonna survive on the paycheck I received from the rehab, and because i love working with my hands. And life was good. I was catching up on bills, got my license back, bought a car, me and my girlfriend (my son’s mother) got an apartment together, and even have our son on the weekends from Friday night to Sunday night. I get to be a dad again. I’m able to bring him to tee-ball and soccer. I spoiled him. I have so much fun with him. Life was perfect. Until the I.R.S. caught up with me and now my paycheck is being garnished every week. And they dont mess around. They take a good chunck of my paycheck. And if that wasnt bad enough, court fees and resritution also gets a piece of each paycheck. I am now unable to stay on top, and began to struggle pretty badly. Im behind on bills. I am 2 weeks late on rent and our landlord is over being a nice guy. We are about to get kicked out of our apartment that we worked so hard to get and i have nowhere to go. I dont know how i would be able to tell my son he cant come over on the weekends cause there is nowhere to come over to.
There are times where I am so overwhelmed and stressed out that i honestly feel like giving up. But I dont. I keep fighting and moving forward. I remember how hard and depressing life was and i always keep that in the back of my mind, because i know i never want to end up back where i was.
So here i am, reaching out, asking for help. If someone can help us with rent, my family and I will be indescribably grateful.
Thank you to anybody who took the time to read this, and thank you to whoever is able to help. And if someone happens to read this that is going through the same thing I did, and battling with an addiction, I hope my story gives you some hope, and helps you realize that it is possible to change, and life can get significantly better. Please dont give up.
My paypal link is paypal.me/radsteinald