Hi all, my name is Ben, I am 38 years old and live in West Yorkshire. I am in a big financial hole, I owe 2 month’s rent and have numerous bills outstanding since I lost my job in May this year. I have borrowed and paid back all I can to friends and family but it’s reached a point where people avoid me ( even though I have paid back moneys) and in some cases i am too damn embarrassed to ask because it’s all i seem to have done last few months. I am actively looking for a job but struggling and for the 1st time in my life , last week, I felt like ending it all as I am really struggling. On the outside I have to pretend I am ok, nobody really ever comes to me and asks me if I am ok so I pretend all is fine because everyone has their own problems, right?? I thought of my younger brother and friends and honestly was too scared to go through with ending it all. I honestly love life but it’s become such a burden, I go to sleep full of worries and guess what, when I wake up same worries and problems are still there. I maybe need to relocate in order to get jobs but I still have to sort my bills and rent and really , really need some help, even advice on how to get things back on track. I am really struggling and am not looking to get rich, just looking to sort myself out as soon as possible. All help, advice and prayers appreciated and i hope one day I myself will be in a position to help someone out that is worse off than me. Thank you for taking the time to look through my fundraiser, Have a nice day! My paypal is paypal.me/borninthestruggle Thanks again!!!