I don’t really know how to do this so I’m just going to start talking. I have been dealing with extreme levels of depression for the past year and it’s stopped me from being able to do anything productive. I’ve barely been able to maintain a job this past year because I can barely convince myself to leave my room most days. I was able to make up for this lost work time by working online instead, doing odd-jobs and gigs, working on sites like microworkers and amazon mturks ect. The thing that has been most consistent for me has been doing editing work for people online. The problem is that most of these things don’t really pay very well, they’ve just been doing a good job of keeping me afloat this past year, but it’s all starting to crumble really fast this month. I haven’t made enough to pay my rent, I’m already 9 days late on rent. I don’t have any food in my house, I’ve just been drinking water and occasionally eating ramen noodles when I can afford it. And my depression and anxiety makes me feel so gross about trying to ask for help. Mostly because I don’t really have anyone.
I don’t have any family at all that I have a relationship with. I haven’t spoken to anyone that I share blood relation with in years. In my depression, I haven’t been able to maintain any real connections with friends or anybody. I don’t have anyone I can really turn to even if I wanted to. And if I don’t get my rent money soon, I’m going to be homeless soon. And considering my current mental state, I’m not sure how I’ll get out of homelessness again if it happens again.
Before I moved into the home I live in now, I was homeless for a lot of the same reasons I stated above. The only thing that saved me then was that I had a car at the time and I was able to drive for ubereats while living in my car, luckily thanks to ubereats I could deliver food to people without them actually getting in my car and seeing all of my belongings in the backseat. That program was a lifesaver for me. Unfortunately, shortly after I was able to move in and stop living in my car, my car broke down. So now with only the money I have made from the internet to keep me afloat, I haven’t been able to get a new car in the past year. I barely leave the house as a result of that as well as the obvious poverty making going out unfeasible for me anyway.
This has been a lot to get off of my chest. But that said, I still owe $300 more for my total $900 rent. If anyone is able to gift me that 300 to keep me from being homeless with no way of recovering this time, I would be eternally grateful.