Hello, my name is Amber. I hate that I’m even having to write this, but I’m at the point where I literally just want to end my life, but I won’t. It’s just so hard when I work over 50 hours a week at Taco Bell and can’t even afford basic things like food in my kitchen, gas in my tank. I’m an assistant manager and make shit. My boyfriend also works at a different taco bell, but he’s a crew member making half of what I make. One of my paychecks has to go to rent. I’ve had to say fuck it to this bill or that bill every month and it’s starting to pile up. My rent is 850 a month, but I’ve had to give my landlord a little extra to pay on my ac that broke cause he payed to fix it. (i’m renting to own). I give my mom 600 every month for my car payment and insurance cause it’s grouped in with her car stuff. I live out in the woods so the best internet I can get is Hughesnet and that 111.99. (like shitty right?) my water bill is relatively cheap however, I let it pile up for 4 months and recently payed 120.00 for water. My boyfriend’s car payment is 164.oo, his insurance is 220.oo last month. ( haven’t been able to pay it so I hope he doesn’t get pulled over). Also for some reason my electric bill for October was 300.oo dollars . It’s usually like 150.oo. So honestly don’t know what happened there.. And pay our local courthouse 50.oo dollars every month for a fine 4 months ago. My trash bill is also ridiculous and unpaid at 90.00 something dollars.And I’m paying on a credit card that’s maxed out, at least trying to.. Look, I’m not a lazy person and neither is my boyfriend by any means. I’ve been trying to so hard to get by, and you might ask yourself why did I move into this place? Well, originally we had roommates but they weren’t holding up to their end so now we’re essentially stuck. and don’t get me wrong, I love this place and want to be able to stay here. I don’t want to lose my home. I’ve been having to break up my rent payments cause it’s been impossible to pay him in full. please help me.. I also have two dogs and two cats that I’m taking care of. I’m only 22 years old but I feel like i’m 40 with all this stress of bills, living and not having any time to actually enjoy what I have and my life.. Getting anything would help me so much..