I am a 20 year old currently unemployed trying to go back to school. My situation is simple. I finished high school at a late age because my childhood consisted of moving a lot and always having to redo a year. It had always been my mother and I. No siblings, no close relations to family members, no father. I was adopted at 7 and moving around was “normal” for me. Towards the end of my education my mother decided that she wanted me to learn French, this meant re doing high school but in another language. Through it all I was alone, my mother was mostly absent, only helping me with guardian responsibilities, I grew up taking care of myself, living alone but blocked from witnessing the financial responsibilities that my mom controlled. At the end of my last year I had gotten accepted to business school and was excited to change my future, my mom made a promise to me and then backed out last minute, she did not want to invest in my education anymore, her reason was she had already invested too much by putting me through different schools in 4 different countries. I wish to put my personal issues with my mother aside, but my current situation is a result of years of a harsh family relationship. I wanted to take out a loan to cover my own education but of course she did not want to be the caution to that loan. She later then decided to leave my life because I did not want to do what she wanted me to do, it was to depend on her, be with her and focus on a career path I knew wasn’t making me happy. She is no longer a financial supporter in my life and even asking for one penny from my mother means having to be of service to her because I owe her, I have never asked my mom for money since she left me. For the past 6 months I have been working in and out of kitchens as a cook in France, with my very little experience I do not earn much, not enough to cover for rent but I thankfully have a friend who is helping me stay for free in her home. I decided being a waitress would be less tiring for me and would help me build my social life and allow me to learn from home and prepare to go back to school. So I am currently applying for a waitress post and as an English tutor, I am glad I am bilingual, it can really help me to earn some money on the side. For the moment I don’t have a monthly salary, I only have enough to cover for food. I am living a simple life, researching for student aid to get back to school in September 2022 and finding a job that will allow be to save up for living expenses when I do become a student again.
My goal: To change my situation. I am very lucky to have a place to stay but I do not want to be dependent of others, at 20 it is hard to ask for help. Lodging aid exists but I don’t have the resources yet to even cover a small rent price.
To go back to school, I know scholarships and student aid exist, but just applying to school has a price. Right now the best I can do for my education is online videos and classes without paying for a certificate. Education in France is less expensive compared to the US but in my situation everything feels expensive,I want to get into marketing and management.
To have enough money to put on the side in case of emergencies. My primary concern right now as an unemployed adult is not having enough to buy groceries.
I believe I deserve a support. I spent my whole childhood trying to meet the standards of my mother who was mostly absent and as soon as I finished my high school education didn’t think it was important to support me in the path I want to go into. At my age I think am a very hard worker, I do not enjoy the idea of being unemployed or unable to pay for food or rent my own place. Life is never easy, this is a major life lesson for me, but right now I don’t have much and no financial support to have a “normal” life.
In the picture I have shared you can see the page of my Wishlist for schools “voeux” on the national admissions site in France. I have already begun the process of applying to schools that interest me. I do not have an amount that I am asking for, I want you to decide if you want to help me.