Until my world fell apart. I guess that I should be happy with the 53 good years but now I am lost. My husband of 23 years got diagnosed with frontotemperol dementia. This is where their personality changes, they get hyper sexual and lose their empathy. They basically turn into a narcissist. He found a girlfriend that he bought a ring for after telling me that he was loaning $120 to a friend. This was one month after their first kiss and he asked her to marry him while still married to me. He was totally obsessed. It kind of made him crazy because he said that he never planned on leaving me. We owned a home and we were foster parents for a disabled adult. We ended up losing the house because he made me stop doing foster care. He lied to me for 4 more years saying that he had broke it off with her. When I found out that he had been to 18 hotels with her the previous year and his response was, “probably a lot more than that” I finally made it so that he could afford to leave with his car & motorcycle but that left me with a large house rental. I was selling things on E-bay and lost my top seller status because I could never find the items that I sold. I walked out of a QT one time unknowingly without paying, made my own second turn lane by our house, got to an intersection once and freaked out. This is all caused from depression and it has gotten worse. I have been turned down for disability. I also take care of my disabled adult son whom can’t get disability either. My cognitive level has deteriorated so much that it is a joke in my family. I have balance issues, stomach issues, joint issues, (I have Ehlers Danlos Hypermobilty disorder”. I also have levascoliosis and moderate disc degenerative disease. I have a breast biopsy scheduled for Monday. My cat of 18 years recently died, my step-father and an old good friend of many years also. I guess when it rains, it pours. I need help transferring from this rental home to one that I can afford. There is a $2360 transfer fee, $600 cleaning fee, deposit on new rental $1775 and moving expenses. This would at least give me a new start. Thank God I have found a great guy to be by my side through all of this. Unfortunately his job recently got cut way back on his hours and he just found out that his one knee is in stage 4 of deterioration where he needs his knee replaced. We sell things on EBay and Offer-up but sales are way down because of the bad economy. My son wants to stay with me but I am afraid that we are going to end up on the streets. I wish I could get my “charmed” life back but I know that I have a long way to go. Any help would be appreciated more than you know! The picture of me is taken at my son’s wedding a few years ago. I took a current pic but decided not to post it. I look so much older now, I just pull my hair back and have a chipped front tooth. I can’t believe what is going on in this world. Why can’t we all just get along?