To whoever reads this
My name is Harry Brereton and I am composing this to essentially ask for your help.
I’m not entirely sure how to approach this, so I’m just going to dive into it.
Around September of last year, I found myself not feeling quite normal. I was more down and feeling more anxious over things, but I didn’t really make anything of it. As time progressed, I found myself entering what I can only describe as a depressive episode. I found everything so overwhelming.
From November through to March/April is where it was at its worst. I couldn’t get out of bed at a reasonable time, and it’s not because I didn’t want to, it’s because I didn’t feel like I deserved to. I would get out of bed at about 5PM everyday (bearing in mind that this was Winter, so it had already begun to go dark at this point) and I would stay awake until about 7AM. This was a cycle that was so hard to break, and because I didn’t think it was breakable, I got worse and worse until I found myself considering doing the worst thing to myself.
It was when I caught that thought that I had a breakthrough moment, a “What am I doing” kind of moment. I worked and worked and worked at it for the next two/three months, but I got out of it. I can now identify that kind of self destructive thinking and I can stop it in its tracks.
This is where the trouble begins though. Now that I’m out of that cycle and thinking clearly again, I’m coming to terms with the damage that I did. I am a student, but because my student loan doesn’t cover everything, ideally I was supposed to work through the year. Due to my inaction during this time, I’ve landed myself in quite a bad situation.
As a student, I rent properties so that I can stay close to campus throughout the year, and July is when the property changeover happens. I owe my previous landlord two months rent at £465 each, so in total £930; and I owe my next one an additional £1170. The reason I owe so much to the next landlord is because instead of them being a private landlord, they are a letting agency and they charge rent quarterly instead of monthly. So in total I owe £2565 and I have no idea how to source it.
That’s why I’m coming to you. I’m hoping that by some miracle, you see this message and you find a way to help me out. If you gave me this sum of money, I promise to you right now that it would be a loan, I don’t want to just beg for money without offering to give it back.
If you agreed to help me, it would make such a profound difference to my life. I would be able to get back on track, as normal. Get a job lined up, go back to university and carry on with my life how I did before all of this happened. All I want is for my life to be normal again so I can essentially start over and go back to the days before all this happened.
If you read this, I really hope you consider helping me. It would honestly mean the world to me.