Hello to you generous souls,
My name is Candace. I am looking for help with rent and Bill’s, specifically car payment. Life has decided to screw me and my family. I have a job but no work. Weird hey? I am not going to be able to pay my rent or my car payment. If I can’t pay for my car I lose it. If I lose my car I lose my way to work and to school. If I lose my place to live, well I’ll lose my children. I am currently waiting for the food bank to help us in that respect.
I am so depressed by the state I am in. I have been looking for a better job for a long time, but due to the economy have had no luck. I am finding myself more and more depressed, having trouble getting up and facing the day. I have no one to help me financially. I know it seems pitiful. It really is. I am embarrassed that I can not provide these basic things for my family. I grew up in poverty and it seems to be an ugly cycle. There is no way out for me it seems. No matter how hard I try. No matter how hard I work. No matter how many jobs I have. I just can’t break the cycle. I remember my mom struggling so vividly. Trying to provide for her family by herself. The only difference is she owned a house and I probably won’t ever be able to.
I remember growing up and being made fun of for what I wore. We had to get clothes from the thrift stores in the 90’s. Hello 80’s clothing. I know it seems pathetic to be bullied about what you wear, but kids are horrible. I have been raising my children to treat everyone with respect and not to make fun of someone for something they can’t control. I hope this generation is kinder on their peers. It seems that they are, although some kids can still be rude. One thing that seems to follow poverty stricken children is the bullying that followed. I don’t mean I’m still getting bullied. More so, I held onto that hurt. Even though I never was wanted to. I can say today it haunts me in a way I can’t describe. I feel inadequate. Well any ways if I could get some help that would be greatly appreciated. My PayPal is