My name is Emily and I am a student living in San Francisco, California. I am in dire need of $2,000 to pay my rent next week. I have a full-time job and attend college classes. I made huge mistakes in the last month. I have resorted to prostitution in the past to supplement my income which put my mental health in a downwards spiral. I have no family, no one to assist or support me. I am so depressed and scared these days I rather face death than homelessness and humility.
I am looking for a job with higher wages and will never find myself in this desperate Hell again.
I cannot sleep or eat. I have nothing to sell. I came to this city with a suitcase of books and have found thrifted clothes and anything else from Salvation Army or the streets. My artistic talents are undeveloped otherwise that could be a source of income. I am a good, kind-hearted, intelligent person. I was abused for so long before escaping. I’m learning so many lessons and fighting demons every single day. All I want to do is help others. If not, why live? I smile and spread kindness for now. One day I will be able to bless others suffering with cash as well. I hope to become a doctor and work in healthcare. An EMT first. Even now I am willing and would love to pay back anyone that could PLEASE HELP ME! I can’t take it anymore. I don’t know if God can even stand my prayers anymore. I can’t stand myself. It’s so hard to be alone in this world. I have angels and God and faith but I am really begging for this $2,000 right now so I can survive. Please, please.
I am so panicked and mortified all I can see is suicide. I don’t know what else to do. I am completely frozen with fear. Depressed and traumatized enough to finally go through with killing myself. A little anger and alcohol, a cold night. I have fantasized for so long. This world is growing so chaotic and bizarre. No empathy. All lies. So difficult for the good people to stay. Again, I’m begging. Nothing is left inside of me. I WILL pay ANYONE back ASAP if they could be of assistance. I will visualize someone helping me and continue to pray. God bless us all