I’m losing my current place at the end of the month with only a month’s notice. My credit is not great nor is my income high enough to get into a place without a large amount going in. I’m selling what ever I can over the next week to try and get what I need together, but short selling of my 20 year old car I don’t know that it will be much help. I don’t live in an area with a lot of public transportation so that option will just cost more than just keeping with in a couple months. I just do not know where to turn to anymore.
I’ve spent a long time trying to maintain the status quo, but when something like this unexpected move comes along I shut down, and if I shut down now I do not know what will happen. So I’m here asking for help.
I know none of us asked to be here, and a lot of us don’t want be here anymore. I want to want to do well in this world. I’m not built for adversity. In a jungle I would never survive outside the protection of bigger, stronger members of the pack, and I’m not doing a great job surviving in society.
I’ve spent 10 years just stumbling forward my family left the state for work, and in turn left me to take care of my ailing grandfather for the later part of my high school days and into my failed first year of college.
Years and years of running home hoping I would not find my grandfather dead from the aggressive cancer he refused to treat have left me rattled. I know I’m weak, but it’s who I am. I try to advance in life. I’ve been unsuccessful so far, and this moment just feels like I’m at a serious fork in the road.
On a daily basis I scream at no one. I have no to tell my frustrations to. No one to vent to. No one to seek comfort from.
If anyone is willing to help me with these unexpected moving expenses I would be forever grateful. I can not guarantee that I won’t need help in the future, but I hope that this will put me along a path here I’m the one helping others soon.