Hello !
I’m a french student struggling to make ends meet in today’s economy.
I am finishing my first master year of cyber security (I studied development and programming for 3 years before that, I LOVE programing so much, I kinda stumbled upon it by accident … Or should I say by pure curiosity, I was bored one day at home and thinking “how are even made the websites and forums and art galleries I go on every day, like what are they made of, how did people make them appear ???” I googled a few exercices and HTML CSS courses AND I WAS HOOKED !! It felt like magic, creating a whole page from NOTHING it was so cool ! Then I discovered php and started crying every day. Jk php was my first langage and it has a very special place in my heart hehe… Anyway what was I saying ?I study programming and it’s really cool.)
I am working part time in addition to my school hours in a company as a DevOps intern, but my student status doesn’t allow me to be paid very much … I cost them basically nothing, and they get money from our government to thank them for hiring us and giving some real world work experience. Which is fine I’m not complaining, the company I applied for is really nice and my tech lead / manager, my team and my other coworkers are super duper nice and willing to give me time to struggle and learn. I do plenty of scripting, automating, docker containers managing and/or kunernetes services … Struggling to staying healthy… ing…. and I find it a lot more fun and rewarding than actual web development ! But it might be because it’s new and I was getting bored of making e-commerce symfony websites all the time (my fault for staying in the same company 2 years in a row tbh, but interviews scare the hell out of me so I stayed in my comfort zone..)….whereas DevOps and security is new !! Ooohhh shinyyy !!
I won’t bore you to death with all the programming rambling (what is it you say ? Too late ? Uhhh..:'( ), TLDR: I am studying programming and it’s really neat but I’m also barely paid at all and I got a rent to pay and it’s getting increasingly difficult because my savings are no more after 4 years of studying ….
I also struggle with mental health and see a psychologist and a psychiatrist every week. Thank God we have a good refund system in France for psychiatry when you’re certified to have long term handicapping issues, but I still need to pay the money first and wait for them to refund me later. It’s just a matter of a week so objectively not that long, but sometimes I have to chose between eating or paying my shrink.
I pay 49 euros every week and I get refunded 42 euros a week after so almost all of it.
As for psychologists, they are not refunded in France. I pay 60 euros every week ….really hoping recovery will quickly kick start in my brain because bitty it’s expensive as heck.
I don’t like listing everything that’s wrong with me but I feel like of you help me pay for my mental health you should know what I struggle with. So uhhhh a lot …
I got borderline personality disorder, eating disorders (mostly of the restrictive type), ADHD, and depression but I’m pretty sure it’s a by product of all the 3 first issues. Also I’m a stutterer :( I am trying to accept it but I hate it , it’s really hard for me to not get stressed when I start repeating words or wovels. But I’ll keep trying 5o make.peace with it !
My rent is 900 euro /month (utilities included) and I pay 240 euros of psychologist per month and kinda pay 196 euros of psychiatrist per month as well although almost all of it is refunded later.
So yeah that was a lot to read ! If you read everything thank you for your attention, I hope I wasn’t too much all over the place (I tried to keep it to a minimum). If you donate thank you even moreee that’s really super nice of you !
Have a nice day everyone !
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