I never had a great childhood, Christmas consisted of hand me downs from my elder brother, my younger sister was the baby of the family and my brother was always first in my dads eyes, I was just the middle child, the accident! I wasn’t planned i was told often enough, my dad used to say I wish you were more like your brother, my mother was my life she tried her best for all of us and I remember her saying to me on my 23rd birthday happy new year, and kissing me on the forehead, I can see now she was saying goodbye in her way, she had suffered from breast cancers since I was 16 first it went to her spine then to her liver and brain, it was 8 o clock in the morning when she died in my arms in hospital, I was alone with her and it broke my heart! My father came to the hospital to pick me up, I cried all the way to the car, he then expected e to cook his dinner, I threw a saucepan at the stove and walked out of the house! I hardly speak to him now, I moved 300 miles away so I could be myself, but that was a few years later! I worked for 2 retailers since I was 16,littlewods retail and woolworths Plc, both companies went bust,and I was left with no job no income no loving family, I lived in a bedsit for 3 years, all I wanted was to work, earn money and make a happy life for myself, something I never had in my young and teenage years or 20s ! This is me now! 40 years old no money, crappy minimum paid job and no partner or family around me! All my old work friends live 300 miles away! I am not begging as I believe we should all work for what we have! But if anyone could donate money I would happily pay you back, I want to go to college and study to be a paramedic but I can’t leave work as I can’t afford college fees all I sm looking for is £1500 to help pay my rent for the year any offer will be greatly appreciated and if you leave me an email address I will pay you back when I sm able!