I’m ashamed to say that I have been on the road of homelessness and embarrassment for most of my 20s and it’s not looking like it will be better soon.
To be honest let’s go back to the beginning. When I was 17 I was a hard-headed teen who got my mom evicted from the apartment by my selfish drugs, alcohol and my friends. I’ve ran away to my family’s house in NY, being clean, sober, working a job and got my GED. They let me stay for awhile until I fell in love and moved to Orlando Fl with a woman. It was very reckless of me at 21, so I didn’t know the worst would happen.
We didn’t last and long story short she kept the apartment that we earned together. I moved back to NY to have my family not want me anymore as they’re in the golden years of life. I have been living in shelters sleeping on trains and my friends house when I can but I spend most of my time working for a studio apartment, but expenses in NY to live are cutting into my savings along with rent to pay my friends. I don’t want to be unsafe in a shelter or under a curfew so I’m literally only working to pay rent to my friends and survival expenses. I’m so tired of being in an endless loop of working and having no money from paying my friends to survive. I’m not asking for much but since I left my mom’s house I just wanted my own place for me to be able to go start school in my psychology interest and to overall just have a better sleep schedule. I am working towards my studio apartment to start me off and I’m not too far away from the goal. If anyone can help me get out of this embarrassment loop so I can be the man I know I can be without doubting myself into depression, I would so appreciate it and would even love to be friends with you. Living in shelters, roaming around the streets leaving my feet blistered, working full-time at a new landscaping job and sleeping on the subway when I missed the shelter curfews, paying rent to friends that sets me back Everytime, I’ll never get anywhere and its really exhausting me to depression. I just want my first place so I can be proud of myself.
Thank you for your time and attention.