My name is Bree and I need help. I am a 20 year old college student in Washington State. I live in the cheapest one bedroom in the city, with a roommate and within walking distance of everything. I eat bulk foods like potatoes and carrots with salsa on a daily basis to save money. I am doing everything I can, and yet I am sinking.
I am a college student, diagnosed with depression in February of this year, a week after my birthday. I am only able to get medicine and therapy through my step mothers, and that won’t last long as she hates me and is divorcing my dad as soon as her own pockets will allow. I can’t drop out of college or I will lose all of my scholarships and federal loans, but I can’t survive on savings and part time work during this pandemic. If I drop out of college with $15,000 of debt I will drown; if I continue as I am now I will drown. It feels like I have no choice but to watch myself decline into poverty and depression.
My ESA cat, Pumpkin, has just died of old age, and it cost $200 just to have him euthanized and cremated. I feel so incredibly alone. The people of America have only received one stimulus check, but I didn’t even get that. My mom falsely claimed me on her taxes, and I am still waiting for my appeal to go through. I’ve been waiting since April now, to even get my regular tax return. The government is in turmoil over elections, they don’t care that people are dying without help, or even notice.
I have sold a lot of my furniture already. I have no family or friends to turn to, anyone in my life who is not barely making ends meet themselves. I have no one to lean on or I would not be on the internet begging strangers for my life.
My rent is $1,000 a month, and I can barely manage it with the rest of my life on the bare minimum settings. I still owe my college $600 for this year, and I don’t know how much the interest will be when I am hit with the late fees. I am already $1,300 deep on my credit card, half of my limit. It’s hard to imagine tomorrow when it seems so painful to live it out…
I am begging. Anyone. If anyone could hear me. I need help, desperately. I am trying so hard, and yet I am watching everything crumble around me. Please help me.