My name is Jennean I’m a mother of five I have four daughters and one son
and a few grandchildren. Life to me has always been challenging some due to
poor choices and others just Life… Married twice 1st marriage 14 yrs 2nd Marriage 12yrs…. My first marriage my husband and I agreed to moved to the Mid West to raise our children . I feel was the best choice that was made considering I grew up in Hollywood California ..My husband from New York .. My 2nd marriage struggled with Domestic violence I finally found the courage to leave… I
relocated to Colorado Springs CO. Accompanied by my 18 yr old son after being raised in a small town I thought some life experience would be good.. His Dream was Music and Music it was… within a year my daughter’s joined .. we are a tight nit family in most cases that’s great in others not so much because we don’t invest time in people friendships .. Just kept to ourselves and a few people we call family …For the first few years everything was an adventure good and bad we rolled with the punches and absorb all the good.. My youngest daughter Paydon started her first year of college was due to give birth Jan 2023 on December 11th 2022 she gave birth to a we 5lbs1oz little girl “Harmony Heaven” premature but healthy as for my daughter Paydon she was suffering from toxemia she was already in the second stages was very ill the doctors were very concerned after several days she started to improve . And was released to go home. As a family we are stronger together then apart .. I missed 3 wks of work we were not prepared for the baby quite yet. During this time I was moving out of my house seeking another my daughter and I were staying in my Son Michael and his wife Aubrey in there home I had about $2,200 to my name saving all I could to get a place.. My oldest daughter Ashley was just engaged to be married to a man after a 2-years they finally set a date for early Spring 2023.. Mid December 2022 my daughter’s fiance took a job out of State good pay and it would help this family offered good pay that financially would benefit the family . My daughter Ashley bought a plane ticket to fly out of state to meet him to spend a couple days with him for the holidays…. The morning of December 22nd 2022 I was getting ready to take my daughter to the airport she felt something wasn’t right since she hadn’t heard from MyKey that morning he always called every morning and every evening. On our to the Denver airport we get a phone call that the flight was canceled turned around and headed back down to the house she’s trying to contact him and there’s no answer around 2:00 p.m. we receive a phone call saying that Mikey had passed away due to a terrible accident …. He was an experience machine operator. Shocked! As a mother the last thing you want is to see my child in pain watching my daughter grieve the loss of her fiance, Her love ,Her Life, Her future lost her best friend watching my children grieve.. my son Michael holding his sister tightly as she screams and cries. I wanted to take the pain away but I couldn’t I felt helpless.. As a family we stuck together and mourned the loss of a beautiful life through the holidays missing more days of work helping with the cost of the cremation making arrangements for the ceremony which was to be in Feb 2023 his remains were held due to an open investigation.Paydon was soon after diagnosed with ” Post Parton Depression. I’m found myself spending more and more time with the newborn ..As we entered the new year 2023 things were moving into action January 2023 My son Michael celebrates the first year since his Grand Opening of his business “Open Vault Records” recording studio. 28 years old excited about his new life with his new wife and his new business My son Music was playing all over Europe and had some new offers here in the States .. Michael was a singer-songwriter he was a storyteller his mission was to change lives he was a dreamer believed that Dreams came true his latest project was working with the community setting up different stations throughout the city to help many who are addicted to fentanyl he called a epidemic that’s killed over $150,000 Americans and hundreds more die each day. His purpose was to give those who seek the help information on what their options are and free programs for help on there way to sobriety . With no insurance or unless court ordered it’s impossible to break away from this addiction . My son performed at several different fundraisers to try to help the community always stayed active in the community .. January 27th 2023 we all planned on a family gathering to celebrate my daughter Kelly’s 25th birthday that evening at Michaels place I was out shopping for some last minute items. When back at the my sons house both my daughter Paydon and my daughter in law Aubrey found my son not breathing on the bathroom floor by time the paramedics arrived and gave him CPR he didn’t survive. Michael has surgery back in November he had got a piece of boneless chicken stuck so he tried throwing up and he tore 14 inches of his esophagus during the surgery they said that it was high risk but he came out of it it wasn’t even a month later and he had complications died suddenly. I don’t have words to express what I felt and how I feel today .. I’m Broken.. Losing a loved one the thought is Unbearable but losing a child is unthinkable .. My question is WHY? In September 2019 right before COVID became known. I was sick I had a respiratory infection in my upper and lower lungs. I had suffer from asthma most of my life but I was struggling to breathe every single day all day for a couple weeks going back and forth to the hospital getting steroid shots getting inhalers I just wasn’t getting any better and on September 16th 2019 I remember sitting there struggling and taking short breaths so tired and exhausted staring at my five year old grandson the teenagers were out they had left and the adults had left earlier that day but for some reason the teenagers came home early and at that very moment at that very time I told my daughter my youngest daughter I was going to die to call 911 my grandson ran outside I saw my son Michael driving by my son Michael and his wife Aubrey came inside the house and I died and my son’s arms for 10 minutes he gave me CPR and was breathing his air into my lungs when paramedics I was pronounced dead they proceeded to give full chest compressions were able to bring my heart beat back I had a 3% chance of survival and I survived because my son saved my life how come he didn’t get the same chance I don’t understand why I’m here he’s not! I’ve had people tell me morning my son is me feeling sorry for myself I’ve had a few different people tell me that but what people don’t understand is that I don’t mourn me losing my son I’m mourn my son losing his life losing all the opportunities here looked forward to the dreams he had the life he loved and his family he adored Michael left behind 7 sisters
beautiful wife his nieces and nephews who lost there uncle sisters who lost their brother watching ,his father who lost his son, watching it all of the people that I love suffer… I would go through hell for a thousand years for my son to be here nothing is ever going to bring him back and my family is broken.. Early July My daughter in law Aubrey got into a terrible car accident broke her pelvis. Shattered both knees 64 staples in her head she’s going to be ok but a long recovery ahead for her and two weeks ago my daughter Paydon and granddaughter Alexia borrowed my daughter’s only vehicle went to a friend’s birthday brunch and on there way the brakes malfunction and was going down hill catching speed so after hitting the e brake the girls tried to avoid hitting the car in front of them turned to go on sidewalk hit the curb flipped the vehicle 3 times before stopping. Striking another car . Thank goodness they are all ok I said thank God my son can fly faster then they can drive… A few bumps and bruises the girls are lucky to be alive. During this time we been staying at hotels which has depleted my savings my transmission is out I’m drowning . There are days I wake up and think to my self I can’t do this anymore I don’t want too. But I have a choice and my choice is to survive and try to overcome this uncertainty and the fear.. Ease some of my stress that’s consuming me…. I’m sharing my story because this is real life for us and I’m asking for some help on first, last month rent and deposit that’s required around $3,000.00 and 2,500.00 for a car so we can continue to help ourselves And forever be grateful… Im barely keeping my head above water … This wasn’t easy for me to ask but I truly need help ..
Sincerely Jennean
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