My story is by no means the worst nor is it the saddest or the most desperate, but I thought that maybe it might resound with someone that may want to help.
My early life is best summarised as poor family, abusive father intermingled with cruel people outside the home. My older sister and I then supported my young sisters and mother in a rented home till my older sister moved out with her partner and my mother finally was able to get her own home. Having few funds to save in all of this after taking out a small loan to aid in my disabled mothers move, I was allowed to move in with my amazing mother and youngest sister of which I pay the equivalent of rent.
I am now 29 looking back on every mistake I have made that led me to this point in my life. I am desperate to start my own life with my own space with enough room to feed my creativity. I work full time trying my hardest to progress both in responsibility and wage. Alongside this I am working on my degree in health science funded my myself and learning Korean, yet more regrets in life that I am trying to rectify now. All things considered I am struggling with balance in life which puts a strain on my mental well-being. If I could only remove some of the burden, worry and regret maybe then I can stop dwelling on the past, mentally berating myself.
I am creative and have often thought about creating 10,000 items to sell for a pound, dollar or euro but I am desperate for my start now, my creativity is bound by stress, worry and sadness. I have racked my brain trying to think if I had anything to sell or profitable skill, to which I have none.
Any amount would be a help, any pound, euro or dollar is one less stone tied to my ankle dragging me down. £10,000 would enable me to pay off the dept, apply for a mortgage and pay for the services associated with this. I am more than happy to pay a higher monthly mortgage with no deposit if only I could be rid of the dept and afford the mortgage costs which would be possible with £5,000. I do not need to live in a palace just somewhere that is warm, dry and my own. I do not want to pay rent or board anymore I want to pay towards something that is my own.
This is one last ditch attempt to start my life before I’m thirty, my life has been fraught with bad luck and besides my family I have no one. I hope that I won’t have to live my life alone in my mother’s house regretting my life. I hope one day to pay any kindness forward, should my life ever take a turn for the better.
Please any help – https://www.paypal.me/lucyb1039