love my mother so much… I don’t think anyone has love for their mother the way I do. The love I have for her is petrifying. I feel as though I cannot live in a life without her. I wrote this poem when I was a teenager for how I felt about her:
I want these butterflies to rush through my stomach and overwhelm my heart. I want them to explode like thunder through my eyes so that maybe you can understand how intimidating you can be when I sit here pleading to you, through my every word of love, unable to tell you that I would swing down the moon if you asked me to.
I’m going to give this a short I don’t know if this is real or if you will see this but if it is true then I appreciate you even if you don’t get to help me… you are helping so many other people and I hope you can continue to help people who are finically in need.
I’m a mom to my almost 1 year old son… I mostly dream of having money for the sole purpose of helping my own mother. She lives in Canada… I live in the USA and the distance has broken our hearts. She hasn’t been able to spend time with her first grandson…. but thank god for technology because through video messaging he gives her so much joy. She has always taken the best care of me and my siblings. Always out our needs first and never did anything for herself. My father is mentally unstable with bipolar disorder and works a minimum wage job. He has my whole life and they have always been in finical difficulty because they don’t generate enough income and to make it worse something every few months always goes wrong and puts them in more debt… like the kitchen caught on fire… another time the garage caught on fire and another time the family car got totaled in an accident. My mother struggles to pay the bills and make her mortgage. I’ve grown up without hot water and electricity simply because she never had enough money to pay the bills. Yet….. we still grew up happy. She gave us everything to ensure we didn’t feel the difficulties of our finical instability. I want to help her in any way to help pay off some of her debt… so I don’t know how much to ask for but maybe a few thousand dollars…? I also myself still have 12,000 in student debt I haven’t been able to payoff… I went to college but had to drop out to get a full time job to help make ends meet in our home finically. And ever since I got married and moved away and my family lost my income its just been so hard. Simple things my mother has to compromise on like… her shampoos and soaps basically anything she can get from the dollar store and dollar store brand. She doesn’t even have the simple luxury of regular brand name shampoos or home goods and it’s made me so sad that I can live a better life because my husband can support me but she and my siblings still live in tremendous finically difficulties. She is an amazing woman… she lost her brother 2 years ago he was hit by a truck at age 40 the loss of my uncle has shattered my family and this year she lost her mother who was battling cancer for 4 years. She’s just been through so much and now she is taking care of my grandpa too she cooks for him and she has so much on her shoulders I want to give her ease. So forget about my student loan she is the most important and anything I can get I need to help my family. I see what happened to me is now happening to my 18 year old brother and he hasn’t gone to college yet because he has been working full time also on minimum wage to help make ends meet and I don’t want that life for him I want him to get a career and education. Please help me help them.