I didn’t know the last 12 years of my life would be dealing with so much physical pain. After my 3rd child, my back lower back gave out on me. Then my hamstring a few months later and then my back and hamstring a few months after that. While my hamstring healed up, my back and my life changed forever.
I struggled to walk. There have been many times throughout the last 12 years that my husband has had to pick me up from off the floor because I can’t move from my lower back. I have 2 herniated disc, disc generative disease, and I don’t have a natural curve to my lower spine. The doctors have said that I am doing more damage to my back than a normal person. They refuse to do any time of surgery because they claim that it would cause me more pain and anguish. And so I have had to learn to fight through it.
It hurts and so many times my poor children have watched as tears streamed down my cheeks as I just try to stand. I try so hard to put a smile on my face and act like everything is ok, but the truth is, 12 years later I am still in a lot of pain. My pain has increased and is now spread throughout my entire spine from my head to my lower back. Doctors don’t know why I am not healing. I have seen so many doctors, but none of them will give me an answer as to what is wrong. I’ve tried countless appointments with physical therapists just to take 1 step forward and 20 steps backwards. I can never make any significant progress. But I try to smile and I have seen how compassionate my children have become because they have watched me over their entire lives. They are kind and help others out because they know how much it has helped me out.
I am writing this to help my husband out. Because of my injury I cannot work. I have tried, but I can’t stand for long, I can’t sit for long and somedays I can’t even move. I’ve watched my husband work so hard to provide for our family. He has talked about wanting to go back to school to get a better education and a degree in computer programming, but we cannot afford it on just one income. And so I thought I would come and just see if anyone would want to help me help my husband by paying down/off our mortgage. I’d love to pay it off, but any little bit helps and is truly appreciated. As of now we owe a little over $100k.
Paying it off would allow my husband to go back to school. It’d even give us the money to get our kids through school. Our daughter just started college and is going into criminal justice. Our son is still in high school, but wants to go into the medical field because he is bound and determined to figure out what is wrong with me. He wants to heal me. Paying the mortgage off faster would allow us to make sure they can go to college and get the degrees they are working hard towards. We could provide them with those opportunities to better themselves and their future.
My husband is a selfless man. He goes out of his way to help anyone in need. He’d give you the shirt off his back if you needed it. I’d love to help him and we are true believers in paying it forward.