The police came knocking in the early morning hours of Sept 10, I knew right away something was wrong. I fell the the ground and I just screamed and screamed and screamed… i couldnt help myself. I cried and screamed. It all seemed like a dream in the moment. His truck had went up in flames just minutes after the crash and he was unidentifiable. It took them months to verify it was him and complete the autopsy. He had no smoke in his lungs so he passed right away/immediately and didnt suffer. But me… his mom my heart feels like it was ripped out of my chest. I have trouble sleeping, eating, talking to people. I cant go out in public anymore, it makes me to anxious. So now we are 44 days behind on our mortgage which is 1150 a month… our phones are 200 a month, electricity bill 300, insurance 100, and vehicle payment 300. Both of our vehicles are broke down it is going to cost $7000 to get the truck fixed and the transmission needs replaced in a car with almost 200,ooo miles on it. So its not worth fixing. Our heater unit went out of out home this winter and thats 15,000. Everything just keeps falling apart, my whole life has been torn upside down. My first born baby… i cant ever tell him goodbye or how much he meant to me, or that I love him. I wish i had just 5 minutes with him. I know it has been some time since he left this earth but i am not in counseling and i should be but i have no insurance, my husband who made the income to support us got hurt at work and now has burnt metal and burnt fiberglass all through his body. His boss didnt turn it into workers comp in time so now hes not getting paid and he hasnt since October. I am paid on commission only, but sometimes it is 0 and sometimes it is 800. Still not enough to pay the bills. I have 2 other children. We get no food stamps or insurance and need money for food too…. I have 2 other children to support; no family and my friends helped as much as they could but it barely touched anything we owe. All the credit cards are maxed out because i had to use them for things we needed like toilet paper laundry detergent, etc. I know we need a lot of money. We did get a lawyer to take the workers comp case but he said that could take 8 months to 1 year. I am literally begging you all to give whatver and however much you can. It has been a huge struggle. My son was like me he would of given someone the shirt off of his back, before helping himself… but i/ we are really struggling. So please help us… Thank you. If youd like to call or text me you can at 4173801590, prayers are always helpful too. Thank you, and even though i still feel so angry with god i know he didnt take my son. For some reason it is only letting me download one of the pics but i have pics of all of the bills we are behind on so if you want prooof i will text or email to you.