So this is something that I never considered doing. I’m learning it’s ok to ask for help, that it actually takes bravery to admit when we need it. The amazing thing is, that more often than not when we share our experiences there is generally someone else who can relate or understands.
I am a 35 year old single woman. I live with my furbabies and I am extremely passionate about my work in the disability and mental health industry.
I am not ashamed to talk about my own mental health and the fact that 6 years ago I used gambling as an escape from anxiety and panic disorder. At the time, I didn’t realise I was setting myself up for some pretty bad conditioning, and that gaming machines would be a part of that.
Years later, I am still paying the price , excuse the pun.
The best thing I ever did was finally admit that I needed help, and I got it. I am not asking for sympathy here, but for you to understand that I have and am doing everything I can to get back on top of things.
6 years ago I started seeing a psychologist, a financial counsellor and self excluded from all gaming venues. It changed my life, and while it has definitely put me in a better position in general, I am still left with the reminders aka debts.
I have been slowly chipping away at my debts trying to get ahead , life had other ideas last year, after 8 years of working for the same company and doing my job damn well, I was involved in work place bullying and targetted which resulted in my losing my job, and as you can imagine this did not help my debts or my wellbeing .
6 months later and I have a great new job,but it hasn’t been easy ,I live in a rural town in Australia that has just gone through bushfires.
I have been trying to renovate my home the last few years, giving most things a go and attempting to do it myself, now whatever spare money I do have is going into mortgage arrears. I am so thankful that I have my house, it’s my sanctuary, even if it looks like a work zone.
Sure, I have dreams for the future and ambition to build my empire. But at this point in time my main wish is to survive. Not even to get ahead, it would be amazing to just get closer to catching up from the years wasted on making poor life choices.
I am not putting a monetary value on here, I feel like if someone can help and you are still reading this , then that’s the main thing. Even $1 is $1 more than before.
While this is a platform for asking for financial assistance, and obviously if you can help, that’s amazing. But I also want you to know that there is a way back from the dark and you shouldn’t feel ashamed to ask for help.. fight the stigma