First, thank you for clicking on my story and because I need you to know how I got here before my why I am here, let me tell you my story.
I’ve always been a put others before myself giver, as I’m sure many people will say but I’m going to give my life examples.
Let’s start when I was 5 years old, on my first field trip, we walked past a homeless man on the street and I gave him my lunch. Later I got in trouble when I didn’t have food but that didn’t matter to me. Fast fwd to being 13 yrs old, my mother having cancer and I got the first job I could to help ease my moms job to buy the things I needed. Growing up I rarely got things I just wanted, but I always had what I needed. Even though we moved every 2 years and even stayed in a shelter at one point. Move on up to high school, I saved to put myself in driving school, walked back and forth everyday. I saved up money to buy my first car, my mom said she would match what ever I saved, but when it came time all I had was what I saved, but I told my mom dont worry my first car is suppose to trash and teach me value lessons. I didn’t want my mother feeling like she failed at something.
Now college, I took 2 buses across state lines everyday to and from the university and took out loans to end up only be able to keep that up for 2 years. After that I did the hardest thing in my life, left home to move to state built for entrepreneurs. I knew I needed to do more and figure out how to make it. All I ever wanted to do at the time was take care of my mom. I slept in closets and sun rooms and lived off of 125 a week for a while until I landed a job that I hated but paid good money. So I got my first apartment by myself, worked 70 plus hours a week all commission in a boys club set up and was the only female in my department. After not being able to go home for a family funeral by the jobs ruling, I quit. Somethings are more important in life. So I went back to the struggle, only to finally get a groove going as a 1099 employee making great money. Now this whole time I got me a place I didn’t even fully furnish, and paid off a car for myself, everything else went to helping my family and friends in need no matter what.
A few years later, I end up pregnant, but to worry I say to myself, I’ve helped so many people I know I can take care of my child. Thus far I have, but what they don’t tell you is that post partum isn’t only depression form, I got it in OCD form. I have no family where I live for help. I have always been the help for my family and friends so not really anyone I can turn to. Then covid 19 strikes and my 1099 job is no more. So now the rent at my current place is a struggle, I partially paid one month, and behind a whole month. Which also the place isn’t even worth the rent, everything is falling apart and pretty much can only be upstairs which also has some issues now. I’m also dealing with my post partum ocd and heightened anxiety. I am focused everyday on figuring out a new venture to make some money, learning to put together a pitch deck for an app idea I have and writing a vegan cook book of my own. So I’m not lazy not just looking for hand outs. I’m hear because times are hard and being stuck in the house to stay safe from covid-19 is all hard. All I want right now is to be in a clean well put together home with some outside space and not have to worry about how many times I’m going to have to move while raising my daughter. So I’m looking to raise enough money buy us a home to grow in. Nothing extravagant just a place of our own, that we can actually live in and be able to go outside in a yard to play. I can have an office to build on the things I’m working on to be in the position again one day to be back on the other side of helping other people. I can be able to truly work through my post partum with less anxiety on my plate and have a kitchen to create content for my cook book. I just want to be a great mom, and be another person to be able to help others. I’m a believer in once you get one hand up, always keep one hand down to pull someone else up in need. Please help if you can, thank you.