I feel like I could write a book here. I guess it started back in 2007 when I lost my daughter. She was out with her friends on Labor Day, going over to a boys house to meet his parents and on the way there was challenged to a drag race on the Interstate. My daughter was the only one out of three people who didn’t survive. She was only 19 and just signed up for modeling school. My name is Carolyn and I started my life sentence that day. Overcome with grief and depression.
I was working as a Surgical Tech at two jobs to make ends meet but after this happened. I wasn’t able to continue my second job as a tissue procurement tech for obvious reasons. I sold my house in Nebraska had to pay 3000 dollars to sell. I moved to California for a new beginning and to be close to my son who was serving in the Navy. I found a job as a surgical tech instructor and drove over to Phoenix to visit family and on my way I had a heart attack while I was driving there. I was admitted for a quadruple bypass. I had just moved into a new apartment and had to tell my new job that I wouldn’t be starting for a few weeks. Since then i have had 3 heart attacks, 5 stents, a charcot foot, and severe neuropathy in both legs and hands. I was traveling with my job and met my husband, got married and have been struggling through a marriage that was probably a mistake.
I thought getting a dog would help me through my depression but he turned out to have several health issues and we had to put him down for bone cancer, he was only 17 months old. I have dug us into a deep hole of debt. All i can say is I still have medical bills from years ago that I haven’t paid yet. I know that I will always be depressed and in mourning for my baby. I know I have screwed up our life. I always think about ending it but I live for my son. I tried to apply for a consolidation loan but I can’t get one.
I wish someone could help. Desperate.