Last year was the worst year i have ever been through in my life. I went to the ER twice in a very short amount of time, plus several normal visits all because at 22 years of age, i am having heart problems. My heart trouble started in the 2nd of may 2019. I lost my job soon after due to being unable to physically meet the demands of the job. I was a trash hauler, i worked up to 14 hour days, driving truck and dumping trash. My life fell apart after that. The doctors never know what is wrong. some say heart murmurs, some say faulty heart valve, some say panic attacks or too much stress. Currently i have about 3 bills i cannot pay and about 8K in credit card debt due to paying for health medication and trips to the hospital or clinics or for medication. Not to mention money i have has to try to loan and pay back. Total i am about 20K in total debt. With no consistent jobs or even current job prospects. I have to pay rent every month to live, i have to keep up my car insurance to be able to travel to the hospital or to try to work odd jobs that i can actually physically manage. I have wanted to give up so many times. Because my heart issues make me extremely tired and fatigued, i cannot push myself or do much physical work. But the work i can do or can find i throw myself into. Even if it physically is too hard for me. And light work or consistent work is hard to find. I have put out my resume/applications to so many places and have ultimately been turned down due to my situation. I pay 475$ a month for rent, 80$ for phone, 90$ for car insurance. Any spare money i can scrounge up goes to medication, health bills, and lastly food. Which i get little of. today 02/07/2020 at 2:25 AM it has been 5 days since i have had a balanced or full meal. Ive had to eat mostly noodles or rely on trying to find work or something to sell to be able to buy groceries. I cant keep up anymore. I’m broken, financially, and emotionally. I am trying so hard to piece my life back together. But i cannot do it alone anymore. It has not worked. I have barely 100$ left to my name, and i am running out of things to sell, and i have not been able to find work in 2 weeks. I’m down to a month left of hypertension and heart medication. I need help… something that has always been hard for me to accept or ask for. But please, i genuinely don’t know where or who to go to anymore. I want to just give up. The only thing that keeps me going is the fact that i am not too deep in the hole to not be able to see the light. To those of you who can or do help…. thank you so much. I have had to rely on the kindness of strangers, and i hope to beat this and get back to a point in life where i can help those in need. Thank you for your time. Please if you have questions or want to see bills, email me. Upload size here is .5 mb, so not enough.