Hey Hey. My name is Anna. I am 23 years old from Uganda. First and foremost, thank you to all parties involved who enable this platform to run efficiently inclusive of those who have generous hearts. I suffered a terrible trauma in my childhood where I was raped by my brother for 3 years in-between when he had holidays. It happened from when I 5-7 years was old. I was made to believe by my mom that it was my fault and my brother convinced me that this was something I loved to do. He would beat me or deny me food if I did not ‘prepare’ for the sessions. When my parents found out, they called the church leaders to pray for this sin and then deemed it over. We were banned from talking about it ever. I thought this whole thing was a dream my entire life. Something that only happened in my bad dreams.
As the #MeToo movement grew popular, I began to realize maybe it was not something that I just dreamt. I asked my other siblings about it. And they all had the same response, “You know we do not talk about it.” It has plagued me for years. Recently (last year) my parents being very religious tried to choose for me a husband. They said it was essential they found out if I had kept my virginity intact. I asked them if they meant aside from the fate that befell me when I was young? They turned and feigned innocence saying they had only heard rumors and believed it wasn’t true. However, they proceeded to tell me never to repeat this to anyone else. They even told me if those thoughts came into my head, I should just think about other things and that they could not afford for me a therapist at this time. But that I should finish studies and prepare for marriage.
I have struggled with depression. I have no one to talk to. I cannot afford a therapist. Recently, I used the last money I had to invest in binary trading with the hopes that my money would multiply, and I would be able to afford a therapist. A man named Mohammed from itrading.co.ke convinced me it was legit and proceeded to take money from me instead through various routes. It turned out to be a scam. I am now currently in debt as well as depressed. I have had many thoughts of suicide, but I remember I have to persevere to be able to help as many young girls as possible who could have suffered the same fate, when I am older and more capable. The worst part is I am forced to live in the same surrounding with this predator and watch as my parents shower him with so much love as he is their first son. They say I should be able to forgive and forget like Jesus did to the men that stoned him whilst at the cross. They do not tolerate moving out of the house unless one is married. I cannot get married to someone whom I do not love (As is the arranged marriage case they are pursuing), and neither would I want to burden them with my trauma. Nevertheless, even if I wanted to move out, I would not be able to afford to.
A therapist is about 300$ per month or 30$ per session. I am not sure how many months I would need to be rid of this evil. I would not mind help with other issues such as paying back the debt or money to move out but what is most important to me is a therapist. I need to get better. I need to focus on being the best version of myself. I have read plenty of self-help books but those can only do so much. Any help you are willing to offer would touch my heart and may you be blessed richly and beyond in advance for any time of day you have offered to my story as well as for any money you are able and willing to grant me. If I could raise between $3500 to $5000, a whole large bunch of these issues would be solved.
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