My name is Laura, and I’m a Venezuelan living in Mexico City. Ever since I left Venezuela in 2005, I’ve suffered from a severe, debilitating depression that has not allowed me to keep a regular job and be independent. I’m 32 years old. I make ends meet by working freelance doing transcriptions and translations, but this does not allow me to save, pay for medical insurance, or even a full rent.
For the past three years, I’ve been adrift, trying to find a purpose in life beyond taking care of my beloved dog, who is quite often the only reason I get out of bed at all. Thoughts of suicide constantly plague me, and I’ve done research more times that I care to admit on “painless” methods. However, I find myself unable to do this in a way that affects no one.
My depression was so severe, at one point I could not even take a shower for two weeks because the anxiety was just killing me. This led to me grinding my tongue against my teeth whenever I was anxious, to the point where I’ve eroded my gum nearly to the bone, and I have no way to pay for a dentist. I’m in physical pain because of this every single day.
Six months ago, in August, I had to have an emergency appendectomy, which I’m convinced was somehow caused by my stress and anxiety, since no one in my family has ever had to have their appendix removed like me.
I was going to a psychiatrist, and taking up to five pills a day to help with my various symptoms, such as constant nightmares, hot flashes, crying spells, and sudden bursts of aggressiveness. This did not help me at all, as the several pill cocktails we tried only made me feel worse, and it was just too expensive for me to afford.
I’ve been sleeping on the floor in a mattress I was able to buy on my own (proud moment for me,) in someone’s house, and this has also caused back problems.
Since I’m a foreigner, and I work freelance, I have no right to medical insurance unless through private means, and I cannot afford this. I’m asking for help to pay for medical insurance and dental treatment, although I need it for everything, if I’m being honest. Anything will help.
Thank you for reading this.